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Friday, September 29, 2006 | 10:28 PM
I fear disappointing everyone with my lousy results.
I fear making Daddy&Mummy unable to trust me.
I fear I would not be able to meet my own expectations.
I fear I will break into tears again in school after exams.
I'am scared. I lack of confidence. I felt uneasy.

He is what I wished for.
I wished upon a star for him to be happy.
I wished upon a star for his one last touch.
I wished upon a star for his three little words.
Of course, I wished upon a star for me not being intimated for losing him.

I'am sorry, sister.
I didn't know by saying that means I'am pushing all the blame to you. I didn't mean to. &I don't wish to. I'am just trying to knock some sense into you. You've changed totally since Primary six. It seems like, I don't know what you're thinking in your mind. I can no longer read your mind. If there is a walkway, I would take it. If there is a mountain, I would climb it. If there is a river, I would swim across it just to bring the old you back.

All those pressure, had been weighing on my shoulders.
The world's on me.
I'am trying all my best to grasp my breath.
It's crushing my soul.
I'am screaming my lungs out just for a help.
Everyone's ignoring me for good.

Let's put it this way.
All the fears, desires, guilt and pressure.
It turns into a penknife, slowly, one bit by one bit,
killing me softly.
The tears of remorseful and jittery,
smeared my face.

I picked up the penknife, and swoosh.
I opened my eyes big & watched my wrist bleed.
The blood's flowing at high pressure.
I felt thrilled for once.
The pain on my wrist releases the pain within me.

Set me free, pleasee.

Loves, Christina



'True love never lives happily ever after - true love has no ending.'
'One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.'

Bye Bye Cat-y Melvin. 'HAHA!' He's off to Cambodia for volunteer work. PS. I hope you don't turn into the next Gayatri or else, I dump you to the SPCA. Geex.

Chemistry test screwed. Haiz. Forget it.
Biology test was hard. AH.
I don't want to get a FAIR grade. Darn it. MdmKaur saw me throwing paper balls at Asyraf & Aloysius. Hello? They started the war first.

What's wrong with me?
I wished for him to come near me. But, whenever he did, my heart races like a horse in the derby. It's as if, I don't know him well enough. It's like, I don't know how to face him anymore. We're like total strangers.
I wanted to say those words to him. But, whenever I tried, the words just doesn't come out the way I want. They stayed inside my heart and punished me like a criminal. They sentenced me to death.
His face I see, the pain I feel. The pain of love is the pain of being alive & get hurt by him.

Got to study at 3.15pm. I shall slack now. (:

Loves, Christina



Thursday, September 28, 2006 | 9:33 PM
'The worst way to miss someone is to sit beside someone & knew you can never own him.'
Whenever, I sat beside him & saw him flirting, it really breaks my heart.


GOSHHHHHH.
I'AM SOO DEAD.
Chemistry test tomorrow. On Mole Concept somemore. To be true, I've got NOOOOO confidence at all. I don't know how to do calculations. Dammit.
Biology quiz tomorrow as well. Thank God la. The quiz tomorrow is nto counted for marks. So, RELAX! (: Geex.

We had a sudden Biology quiz today. 25MCQ. I' only got 22/25. Not quite satisfied with myself. 'Cause I had 2 careless mistakes. Haiz. But on the other hand, I think I fare well la. 'Cause afterall, it's a sudden quiz. At least, I managed to remember some stupid Biology facts.
MissTan is on MC today. No teacher teaching us the chapter--Pressure. & guess what? It's tested for EOY la. However, we pleaded with MissLow (Well, I think her name's spelt like this =X) &she taught us Pressure in her free period. ThankYou. (:
I did something wrong today. I copied ZhouDao's Chinese Summary. Sorry MissOng. So sinful. LOL.

I've not done the MonkHill's EOY test paper. HAH. What a school name. We were like laughing all the way when we received this practice test paper from MdmKaur.

Hmm, Nice MSN nick la, Joel Sir. LOL. His nick is,'Mug with passion'. YEAH. I will mug with passion. (:

Loves; Christina



Wednesday, September 27, 2006 | 10:04 PM
STUPID ankle of mine hurts badly.
My mum suggest me seeing a Chinese SinSeh.
NOOOOOOOO! It's horrible after I read Zeng An's blog (I just had a sudden urge to view NDP people's blog).
The sight of me, sitting on the chair & the SinSeh twisting my ankle anyhow, just scares me la.
Plus, the disguisting blackie medicine. AWWW. Faints.

Had tution just now & I bandage my ankle into a BUN (Well, not really bandage. Also, they called my ankle a bun. >.<)
& a bloody particular bitch in tution pisses me off real bad. Or maybe, I should say, three bitches. Let's name them, Bitch A, Bitch B & Bitch C. Jonathan asked Bitch A to sat beside Deon 'cause it will be too disrupting if the three bitches sit together. So, that Bitch A kept messaging Bitch B which is on the other side of the classroom. Okay fine. Then, Deon kept talking to Kit Guan about some guys stuff la. Jonathan then reprimanded Deon for talking to Kit Guan about some necessary stuffs. Also, Jonathan asked Bitch B whether that SMS is important anot. If it is not, then keep the phone. Bitch B kept the phone. Bitch A switched messaging Bitch C. They two ended up laughing so loudly. Whatever. They are total flirts ok? Talking to the guys behind them. =.= Then, Jonathan was explaining some Scientic thing about Ecosystem. She kept slamming her stupid desk. AHHH. Total disturbance to the class la. Bitch A, you've got attitude problem you know?
I don't give a freaking care whether any of my tution mates sees this post. 'Cause I know, they've got the same sentiments as me. (: Afterall, we've been such long friends since Primary 6. GEEX.

Anyway, I'am kind of nominated for EAGLES award. AIYAH. What's the use of nominating me? I wouldn't get the award too. Do I have the leadership? Do I even made contributions/ attained high levels of achievements in National Competition? The highest level of achievement in National Comeptition I ever get was a Certificate of Participation. HA. I'am only proud to announce that, I'am one of the participants of NDP06. Because, of my friends in there. They gave me the warmth in NDP.

I've not done my Chinese Summary. Biology TYS done! YAY.
I'am too tired to do my homework now. Tired from all those cryings in the afternoon.


Bye for now. (:

Loves, Christina



I'am telling you, HE SUCKS BIG TIME. People may think that, he's charming, he's got a GREAT character. But, just look at how he hurt me.
I just felt like crying now. My laughs seems so fake. It's no longer called laughs.
I ain't laughing from my heart. I'am crying deep within my heart.
I'am giving up. Really. No kidding. I can't possibly go on crying every night & yearn for him.
He's hurt me too deep.
Everything seemed so perfect in the beginning. Until he started to flirt with girls infront of me again. Everything's gone within a night. No more. It's all in the past. Just forget that I've loved him once.

Back to schoolwork. I'am going to numb myself now. From physical to emotional. I think I'am going to start cutting myself again.
Stupid Asyraf. He threw my pen at me & hit my second finger 'cause I aimed at Januver & it went in the wrong direction. The pen then hit his 'TOOT'. HAHA!
Had lots of free periods today. HEH.

Biology TYS Chapter 10 yet to be done. Chinese practice test paper not touched. AHHHHHHHH.

Loves; Christina
'Shes real dead now'



Tuesday, September 26, 2006 | 4:54 PM

RAWR. I just got to know a stupid truth.
My sister bought a shorts last saturday! AHHHHHH.
& I don't have!!! NOT FAIR. I'am going to complain to DADDY.

DARN IT. So 'MUCH' uncountless homework yet to be done.

Also, not forgetting, TESTS.

&next monday is the first day of EOYs. I've not touched any of my revision yet!

I have to say, 'HoFung is a total dumbiee.' HAHA. He kept kicking my leg under the table during tution on Sunday. GRRRR. I make sure, on Wednesday, he will go home with bruises on his legs. GRINS. (:

Again, I really think I screwed my Eng Oral which we had it last Friday. Here are the comments made by the teacher. During the reading aloud: Reading is good. Makes an attemot to read fluently. Expressive. During the picture discussion: Nobody mention about the waterbottle except her. Very poor+ shallow description of main/one character. Appearance.
So devasted to hear that. BOOHOOO.

Physics test was harrddd.

Off to finish my homework!
Loves, Christina




Monday, September 25, 2006 | 5:44 PM
Here's my defination of a misbehaving schooling kid:

Okay, doesn't those criteria fits my sister? YEAH. I just realised that she had turned from BAD TO WORST. Maybe, because she is in the NORMAL ACAD stream. Thats why. Let me put it in another way, her friends MIGHT be be of a bad influence? I was thinking, how could a Secondary One student always reach home much later than a Secondary Three student? Take me for an example. I end my classes at 2.30pm & my sister ends her classes at 1.30pm. By right, she should be home at around 4pm (Well, I gave some allowance for her ok? I didn't mention that she have to be home straight away after classes.). Plus, my sister's always hooked on the computer & doesn't revise for the upcoming EOY. I admit, I've not quite started my revision yet, but at least, I' did studied for my tests. Also, vulgarities were always coming out from her mouth. I mean, she spoke like an unruly teenager. What will this reflects on her? A BAD IMPRESSION! 'KNNCCB, FUCK, NABEI....' are her favourite quotes.

Maybe, my Dad have to put a curfew at home. {My sister have to be home by 6, NO more vulgarities & NO using of computer. To be fair, I should be following this curfew too.}

Whatever. You guys can say, I'am against Normal Acad students. For your information, I'am not 'cause I still think that, students from NA stream can be successful in life too. But, just look at the majority. You can see for yourself right? I'am just speaking the truth. What is this world coming to? Uncivilised?

ARGH. My old ailment acts up again. 'cause I sprained my ankle about 3 years ago. So, now, it's still hurting & I can't touch my ankle. By the way, my History test sucks totally. Mdm Sharifah cheated my feelings. I felt so cheated. HAH. She gave us the topic on TOV which we did not study. & the marks are included for SA2 results ok? SCREWEDDDDD.

There's Physics & Chinese test tomorrow. DEAD. Physics's on General Properties of Waves + Light. Chinese is sentence-making. & I have to memorise the 40 sentences. DAMN IT. How can I possibly study all in one night when I've got tution at 6.30pm-8pm & have Amaths worksheet as homework?

Gotta fly off to study!

Loves, Christina




Sunday, September 24, 2006 | 1:20 PM
Woke up at 11am.
Then washed up & started revising History again.
I was sooo dumb. I studied the whole chapter 5 when the test tomorrow only test on Hitler's expanisist & Policy of appeasement! RAWR.
& the worst thing is, I can't remember the dates! DOUBLE SHIT.

SIAN-sation. 4 tests one whole shot tomorrow. History Content Test, Biology test, Amaths Quiz & Emaths test. HAIZ.
Whatever. Christina will flunk at least 2 subjects tomorrow. BOOHOO.

Loves, Christina



It's sooo early on a Sunday morning. HAH. 1.39am. (:
I'am tired of studying/ mugging on my History. AH!
Why must there be a Hitler in this world? RAWRR.
Plus, so many stories about him! For eg, Policy of Rearmament, Policy of Appeasement. SHIT them la. =p

So addicted to SHINHWA's song--- Once in a lifetime.
'Once in a lifetime, fly to the star.'
MYGOSH. Watched INOTSTUPID2 just now. WEEEEE.
What can I say? Joshua&Shawn simply rocks la. HEH.

Oh yes. I changed my MSN nick after making a careful decision. LOL.
It's now, '/ chris-TINA'z (: Once in a lifetime'
Nice right? Of course! It's my NAME! xD

Loves, Christina (:



Saturday, September 23, 2006 | 5:53 PM
Chemistry tution ended 39 minutes ago.
It was fairly good. & I can see that, I'am getting better at the Mole Concept. (Er, I'am not self-praising. That's what Clement--my tutor says. (; yay!)

Watching telly now. WEEEEEEEEE. I've not been watching the tv on saturday evenings for a longggggg time.

&I almost finish my homework! Okay, I've yet to finish my two essays on SocialStudies.

4MORE HOURS TO 9PM!
WHICH MEANS, I CAN WATCH INOTSTUPID2 (TV SERIEL) VERY SOONNNN.
ALSO, MY FAVOURITE VARIETY SHOW: THE JACKY WU'S SHOW! !

Loves, Christina (:
I'll be updating later.



Back from Amaths tution about 5 minutes ago.
& Daddy asked me to meet them at TM.
ARGH. But, since, I decided to be a darn-good-girl, I'am staying home to finish up my Chemistry tution homework (It's due today at 5pm, SHIT).

Revised every chapter on Amaths today. From Sets to Binominal Theorem.
WEEEE. I hope I do well in Amaths yeah.
Plus, there's also Amaths tution tomorrow at 6pm at Jonathan's house. >.<

Gotta start on my Chemistry tution homework!

Loves, Christina (:



Friday, September 22, 2006 | 9:12 PM
YAY! My dad solved the poor-stupid internet just now! WEE.
So now, my sister can use my computer's internet too. (:

AHHHHHH. Oral's crap. I screwed up my English Oral.
DUMB CHRISTINA. The picture discussion is about some children doing stupid workout. & guess what I said. I told the Mdm Lafrieda, 'I assume that the students are doing workout & expecting a sort of important guest. For eg, a government local offical.' Okay. You must be laughing the hell out of you now. Whatever. & this is the first time I'am soooo dramatic during Oral. I said, 'Oh Timothy! You can do better than this!' with my most PROFESSIONAL voice. Now, the worst part. I made eye contact with Mdm Lafrieda. I got scared the hell out of me. Her look was that scary can? Then, I saw her writing something on the paper. 'POOR & SHALLOW DESCRIPTION.' My gosh. At that moment of time, I felt thunder striking me.
AIYA. 'So what? Oral's over. Get over it & move on. The marks are already there.' Melanie told that.

After Oral, went to study (Er, I think, doing homework) with Melanie at CompassPoint for like about 1hour. Thanks girl. You cleared my doubts on the darn statitics. ILOVEYOU, MMMEEEELLLL! (: (see, I declared my love for you in my blog. Thank me okay? HAHA.)

Schedule for tomorrow
Amaths tution tomorrow morning at 9am.
Gonna finish ALL my homework & revise for History Content Test.
Chemistry & Physics tution tomorrow evening at 5pm.
Then, watch INOTSTUPID2 (TV SERIEL) at 9pm. (YAY! Joshua&Shawn! WEEEEE!)

Okay. Watching Channel 8's show now.
OhMyGosh. He's proposing to her! & when they ran away from the parents' 30th anniversary, ITS LIKE SOOOO ROMANTIC. I also want to be the runaway one. Haiz.

See, EOY's reaching& I've not started on any of the subjects!!
I'am soooo dead. I need time to revise! Gonna sacrifice my blogging time for studies. So, bear for a month before I can blog & revive my blog again. =p

I sooo love Jay Chou's new album. Especially, the song (Qian Li Zhi Wai). I think the idea of combining two different generation singers together was GREAT. Plus, the song lyrics' sooo nice. (Dont' say, I like FEIYUQING okay? I only like the song, not HIM!)

END OF ENTRY.

Loves, Christina (:



Wednesday, September 20, 2006 | 10:51 PM
I was wondering, why students nowadays were so troubled by this word -- 'LOVE'.
Well, I admit, I was (Er, no. I mean, currently) once heartbroken because of the so-called-HIM. But after today's CME lesson (today's lesson is on breaking up), I've realised that, studies are far much important than Boy-Girl Relationships. I no longer find the need to make myself cry because of guys. I find no reason to be heartbroken because of him. I live my life for myself. Remember girls (Especially, my dearie sister), don't be eager to find your dreamguy. It will definitely comes in your mature years. Concentrate on your studies first. Also, accept the break up easily. Don't ever think that you're useless. You're not! If you are, your parents wouldn't have choose to bring you into this world & make you suffer like you're now. Have your piorities right. (: & Love can't be forced.

Tution's fun. I love Chemistry tution. I don't know why.

Thank you 'my-cousin's-husband'. Haha. He helped us with the poor internet connection again.
Thank you 'my-dad's-cousin'. He bought the wireless router + modem + 'i-had-no-idea-what-functions-it-have-there' for us.

Loves, Christina

*cheerup vonny. iloveyou.*



Blogging before my tutor comes.
ARGH. I soooo need help in Chemistry. I'am struggling!!!

Okay. Today's a joyous occasion. The birth of another computer with an internet connection. YAYS! Next time I can blog with no distraction 'cause my sister will be using the another computer in the another side of my house. HAHA. But one thing, my sister's computer has nice MSN fonts. & mine's the old one. sad case okay?
Also, a new washing machine + vacuum cleaner! ((:

Tomorrow's ELEARNING DAY. NO-SCHOOL-DAY!
ONE,TWO,THREE. SAY HOORRAYYYYY!

GTG. BYE!

Loves, Christina



Monday, September 18, 2006 | 4:22 PM
Here's a Structured-Essay Question which can help you in your History paper.
'Do you agree that my sister is too vulgar? Explain your answer.'
*RAISES HAND* Definitely, I'am the first one to answer this question. HAHA.
Maybe, I shouldn't have introduced her to the word 'FUCK'. BUT, HELLO! I din't teach her to other words. For eg, KNNCCB or whatever. I only told her, 'VON ar, next time you angry, scold the word FUCK okay?' LOL. Okay, that was so LAME & random. Geex. I'am being so stupid.

MELANIE! I know you're reading my blog. Whatever. I can't stop you from reading 'cause my blog's just sooo popular. HAHAH. But remember, next time you come visiting my blog, PUH-LEASE tag me! (I'am so not used to typing those, unproper & broken spelling. Well, I'am not praising myself.)

School's ok today. Yeaps. The thing is, some stupid guys sitting behind & beside me piss me off.
So what la, AngRen. Don't tell me the Amaths answer la. BIG DEAL. =D Stop calling people a sucker when you suck more than 'someone whom everyone knows.' LOL.
Of course, not forgetting Asyraf & Aloysius.
Let's have a game of throwing paper balls then. Girls will win la! HAHA.

I'am soo dead. Have not finished my tution homework which I have to hand in later. SocialStudies & History Content page is still on my not-done-list. Chinese spelling test tomorrow. DEAD DEAD DEAD.

I'am off to eat my lunch & then start mugging.

Loves, Christina



Sunday, September 17, 2006 | 3:48 PM
I'am sick. I'am dying out. The cough's killing me.
&I'am still eating chocolates. I trying to kill myself in a faster & nicer way.
People asked me to take care & get well soon, but I don't want.
I want to be sick forever & run away from all those problems.
I was thinking, whether Elearning Day is a good idea or not.




On the way home just now, I saw a young couple hugging each other so tightly. How I wish I was the girl. I wanted so badly to be in his arms. I almost broke into tears just now. Little did I know, my desire for him was so undescrible.

EOY's starting in another 3/2 weeks. &I promised to study hard. But now, I'am not! I just finished my homework& yet to revise my Emaths test which is tomorrow. ARGH. I'am sooo dead.

I'am still trying to find my way out, but I seemed to be lost.

Loves, Christina



Thursday, September 14, 2006 | 9:51 PM
Im not missing youIm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you
I'am not missing you by Stacie Orrico

ahh, Trigo. Trigo. Trigo.

Loves, Christina



I'am back from school.
Okay, I was feeling soooo depressed for the whole day. Plus, I had a SUPERDUBER sore sore throat. I've got a sudden urge to take a penknife from YingShan ('cause she wanted to burst those balloons which the class are playing with & scaring Joyce&gang la.), &cut my hand. I felt like I was turning into the old Primary Six Christina again. The one who was cutting her hand almost everyday in class together with Pearlyn. ARGH. Because of studies, RedCross, relationships & more. I was so helpless. I could do nothing to help myself &eventually, I ended up crying in one corner. I mean, I pretended to sleep but I ain't.


SocialStudies' okay. English was boring. Physics was fun. Let me tell you why. HAHAHAHA.
We played tricks on MissTan. Firstly, we put a balloon on the teacher's table & asked her to sit down. We drew a MissTan with short body&legs, rosy cheeks, short hair. You can never image it. Its darn hilarious. However, she realised that stupid visible balloon. So, PlanA failed! Next, we started to scare her by keep reminding her to be careful &told her that, she will never walk out of 3E1 classroom like the way she came in. She freaked out (Er, I think so.). Bernice then asked her to open her teaching notes &take a look in there. She opened it but, guess what? She stood so far &opened it la. HAH. Then, she continued to start her lesson. She wanted to switch on the visualiser la for lesson &suddenly, we screamed! "MissTan! NOOOOOO!" LOL. It was just a TRICK! So, she asked Kevin to switch it on for her. Kevin was scaring her too. As you know, to use the visualiser, you have to switch off the lights &pull down the screen yeah. She tried to do that herself. We screamed again! "MissTan! DON'T! Later the screen drop down &hit you la!" Once again, she asked Kevin to help her. >.< So we carried on with the lesson. We came to a subtopic on the reflection. Joyce told her, "MissTan! That girl in the notes' is waving to you!" Then, lesson ended &she walked out of the classroom. YingShan tried to burst the balloon behind her back while we were greeting her. "ThankYou MissTan. Have a NICE day!" We wanted to give the balloon to MissTan but she refused. She said, "Sure got cockroach inside the balloon la!" &we were all like laughing like mad.

WTH la. Priscilla just called me &told me that, no need to do functions. =.= &I've already did it la! GRRRRRR.

I'am off to finish up my Trigonometry &Revision Exercise!

Loves, Christina



Wednesday, September 13, 2006 | 9:40 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEARIE ALIF!
Okay la. May all your wishes come true & all the best. (:

As normal, lessons are BORING.
Did Biology & SocialStudies Project.
Had Talentime training. Oh well, Melvin seems to be quite fed up. >.<

End of post. I'am tired. I don't want to blog anymore.

Loves, Christina



Tuesday, September 12, 2006 | 10:24 PM
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting beside the person, knowing that you can't have him. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.


AWWWWW. My thumb's SUPERDUBER pain la. Don't worry. It's just a small papercut. Okay, maybe not small 'cause it hurts badly.

My Biology project's done! YAY. The lungs are working. Now, I can show Aloysius & AngRen how big are rabbit's lungs. HMPH.

Completed my CME poster as well. I'am so proud of it. Oh well, not that proud. 'Cause I used that picture in my blog as the theme. HEH. But, HEY. At least I looked/researched for the poster okay? I did give my effort.

I don't want school tomorrow. NOOOOOO. & Plus, I had to stay back for SocialStudies project. ARGH. Q$ %#&^&**(*& *(@#%^@ I want to come home & sleep immediately after school la!

Loves, Christina



Never say goodbye, Please don't say goodbye.



A HUNGRY Christina is like an angry LION. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'am still waiting for my 'FAST' sister to bring me KFC home. ARGH. KFC again. It makes me grow FAT! I needa SLIM down!
Nevermind. More PUSHUPS! It does me no harm.Come'on Melvin. Come'on ZhiQi & Calvin. Give me more pushups. (: Make it 100 pushups for this week's training. HEH.

School's fun because, there's Physics lesson. HA. We're like, going crazy during Physics lesson & I'am not listening to MissTan explaining about the Waves. ILOVEGOSSIPING. =D&HAHAHAH MEITING. You've got hiccups. AMaths lesson's fun too. 'Cause its on a new chapter--- Binominal Theorem. I love it man. Even though, it seems tough.
Cramps came back during English lesson. Plus, I was shaking & shivering there. 'Cause of PAPAQUEK'S stupid idea of having a practice Oral. >.< Chinese lesson was funny. Hilarious. Doreen kept hiccupp-ing while MissOng was explaining something about letter-writing. LOL.

4 more weeks til EOY. I'am going MUGGGGGGGGG.




Will be updating later again. MY LUNCH'S HEREEEEEEEE. YAY! Shall start on my homework & CME poster after lunch.

Loves, Christina



Monday, September 11, 2006 | 8:20 PM
Don't cry, Christina.
You wait for him who never come back while shutting your mind.
Move on with life.
Stop, he will never come back.

FFFFIIIRRRSSSTTT DAY of school's HORRIBLE. I was having a terrible stomach ache & stomach cramps early in the morning. AH. So, I spent a period of EMaths inside the toliet shitting, & MUMU's like waiting for me outside the toliet like an idiot. Sorry dearie MUMU. Anyways, you know I love you so much. HA. (:
(Okay, I'am not lesbian. I like PURE guys.)

There's haircheck on guys today. 'NICE' haircut eh, AngRen. HAHAHAHAHAHA. So evil of me. >.< SIDEBURN ROCKS. SLOPES ROCKS. HEH. BUT, I'am not going to have it. Guys, enjoy the sideburns & slopes for all you can.

Rushed home after school for tution. I was kind of excited for today's lesson. 'Cause, this is the first time, I had tution at such early hours. I mean, at 5.30pm & normally, my lesson only starts at 8pm la. &I din't dared to show my failed-by-one-mark Chemistry CT paper to him. I only showed him my almost-reaching-full-marks Physics CT paper to him. I only want praises & not nagging. AW.
Okay, SORRY TUTOR. I admit I was day-dreaming away during lessontime. I've forgotten what's on my mind that moment.

So, here I am blogging. Oh yes. It reminds me. I will be blogging short in the next 3 weeks. I'am going to start my revision for EOY. I can't afford to flunk any of my subjects. I WILL study hard. I WILL prove everyone wrong. (: Just, wait & see. You will get the best out of ChristinaChoy.

Loves, Christina



Sunday, September 10, 2006 | 10:18 PM
OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
MUMMY, I don't want to attend school tomorrow. I want an MC. Please let me be sick tomorrow. I miss ANTIBIOTICS.
Finally, I finished my homework. Erm, I think so. Not that sure.

Red Cross International Bazaar. WOOO. First time I attended such event. First of all, its crowded. It's packed like sardines. Then, I started seeing lots & lots of NDP people. YAY. I miss LAONIANG (XinYu)! I wanted so badly to hug her la. But thinking of it, shes on duty there. So, if I hugged her, I'am afraid, she will get scolded. Forget it then. Next, HuiYi, Clarence, JinPing, Andy, MinXuan, Jessica, Jessie, Faidila, ConHwa, WeiBen, Kelly (Thats all I can think of). Aw, I was hoping to see, KaiTing&gang plus, PEARLYN.

Went window-shopping (I guess so) at Far East Plaza, then, Peninsula Plaza. NICEEEEEE clothes they have there. YEAH. Sorry. No pictures to be uploaded.

I'am sorry if today's post is kind of like, short. 'Cause I just trying to CURE my blogging-addict. So, I came online. (:

Loves, Christina



YAYS! My sister's back from North District Camp! FINALLY. She just kept saying tales about that NDC. BIG DEAL NDC. The Camp Unity that I'am going is far better than that NDC. NDC's sooo much smaller in structure than Camp Unity.
YVONNE, LISTEN UP! Let me tell you. Camp Unity is just another National Camp but it only involves Red Cross Cadets, no NCCs, no GGs, no NPCCs, no Boys' Bridage, no Scouts', no Girls' Bridage. Its located at MOE Dairy Adventure Camp (Don't ask me where, I don't know) &you can squeeze milk out of cows, having milk everymorning for breakfast. OKAY. I'am just kidding & crapping. Cancel that part off. What about your pathetic NDC? Its at Campsite, the sooo oolo place i've seen so far. So what if you've got barbeque, marshmellows, chickenwings & much more on campfire night? SO, SO, SO? That will make you grow horizontally, & not longitutally. LOL. Thank god. I won't be having those for Camp Unity or else, I need to do 100pushups everyday. Its a tortue you know? Plus, you get to know those NEW Volunteers Instructors. I get to know those VIs which are already in RC at least 5years. (: See.
HAHAHAHA, I think I can smell a sense of strong jealousy in my blog. OH YES. It reminded me. YVONNE! Don't touch my boyfriend la. HAHA. Hes mine! =p Heh. Yeah, I know hes handsome & hes the first guy you know in NDC. But, LEAVE HIM ALONE! Lol. Don't snatch my boyfriend or else I snatch Lucas away. HAHA.

I hate Additional Maths. I hate History. In short, I hate homework. I've been muggin & doing homework since 4pm. For once, I stared at a Biology question for 5 minutes & I can't think of the answer. So dumbie. & I got to know that theres a new set of History homework over at Elearn. OH WTH.
School's reopening. Oh man, the stress is back. Tests are back. Mock-Exams are back. More assignments are back. AH SHIT IT.








I admit I'am now kind of in love with JAY CHOU. The more I see him on tv, the more I listen to him, I'am like, thinking hes getting HOTTER & SEXIER each day. Okay, I'am crazy.

Tomorrow's RC International Bazaar. 2 years one time. What a rare chance & I'am going! WOO! I hope, no one will beg me to buy something from them tomorrow. I've broke & penniless now. I'am stil saving up for my jumper.

Thats all. Kind of long entry la.

Loves, Christina



Saturday, September 09, 2006 | 1:45 AM
Can you believe it? I'am actually crying because I miss my sister so much. GOSH. My throat's choked. My tears are rolling down.
YVONNE CHOY! Can you reply my message? I'am feeling so worried & anxious. The feel of 'checking my own phone for message every one minute' is so torturing. Plus, I don't dare to call your phone 'cause I'am afraid you&I will end up wailing over the phone. & please please please. Don't cry at Campsite which I think you will. Don't be intimidated. Don't think of the ghost stories which I told you few days ago. Don't miss Daddy & Mummy. Or else, you will end up having a sleepless night.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I regretted letting you go for NDC la. I shouldn't have asked you to sign up. Its all my stinky fault that you have to sleep at such horrible place---Campsite.

I'am soooo not going to sleep until the next morning. I'am going to wait for your message. I don't care.

Christina. (I miss VON badly)



Friday, September 08, 2006 | 10:23 PM
I miss my sister dearly. Aw VON! Hurry hurry! Come back & have pillow fight with me. I want chat with you la. I've got so many things to tell you. I can't wait for tomorrow, 12.30pm. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I din't know I love my sister that much la. :(

Double sadness in a day.
I've lost my fringe! My hair-dresser cut off my fringe automatically. SAD. DEPRESSED. I've been wanting my fringe to grow longer & now, its back to the old shape! I feel like killing that hairdresser la!


You asked me, whats the homework for today. & I replied you. You asked me, how to woo a girl that you liked. & I told you. You treated me like, invisible. But, do you ever know, how much it hurts to answer all of your questions? Do you ever know that my heart's bleeding profusely?
No you never did. I wasn't treated as a Princess. Ah, forget it.


Loves, Christina
For all of my life. Never believe a guy's words when hes angry.



Ten things I would do before I die:

  1. Marry a RICH guy & be a tai-tai.
  2. Be a certified well-known doctor & save people from SARS & BIRD FLU. (:
  3. Tour the world & snap snap!
  4. Have a Korean & Taiwan drama-marathon with girlfriends.
  5. Go visit the 7 wonders of the natural world. (Grand Canyon, Northern Lights, Mt. Everset,The Great Barrier Reef, Victoria Falls, The Harbor at Rio De Janeiro, Paricutin)
  6. Go visit the 7 wonders of the ancient world. (Great Pyramid of Giza, Hanging Gardens of Babylon, The Status of Zeus at Olympia, The Temple of Artemis at Ephesus, The Mausoleum at Halicarnassus, The Colossus of Rhodes, The Lighthouse of Alexandria)
  7. Cook & Bake!
  8. To be on a comedy show.
  9. Burn all the textbooks in the world.
  10. Stop all the riots, wars &whatever. Peace. (I don't know how but I'll try.)

I cam across someone's blog & I started asking myself this quiz. What is Death? What would I do if I know I will die in another 1 week? I guess, death will be a breakaway for me. All my troubles & everything will be gone. Disappear within a night. Family weeping for me.

Dear "...",

PLEASE don't wait for me. I don't want to keep you waiting. I don't want another one turning into me. I don't want to hurt another good guy. PLEASE forget me & let go of me. I'am not worthy of you.

Dont worry, I won't kill myself even though I'am falling into depression. So, I'am off to the hair-dresser! BYE FOLKS.

Loves, Christina




Thursday, September 07, 2006 | 11:52 PM
Everything seems to be too late when I start to wail & regret.
Intense Sorrow, Regret, Guilt within me. Melacholy filled up my empty heart.

His actions are just pretense. A disguise. So deceptive.
His affliction words caused me misery. So hurting.
He gave me the look. He poured all his sorrows out to me. He asked me for advice. He entered my mind & made me confuse.

Why didn't I do the things I wanted so badly?
Why I chose to let go?
Why am I not the girl that he likes?
Why must I met him in the first place?
Why do I believe in love at first sight?
Why I cry for help in the middle of the night?

So many 'WHYS' & I don't have the key to them. I'am bewildered. I'am puzzled. It's a enigma to me.

I don't want to be his BEST friend. I only want to be his GIRL friend.
I don't want our love to be perfect. I only want our love to be forever.
I want to be in his arms. I want to be whispered by his sweet-talkings.

So much of DESIRES & I can't have them.

I'am in agony & tired. I'am suffering in this relationship. The pain's excruciating. It's tormenting.
I relinquish. I surrender. I withdraw from this game. I can't afford to pay the price.

I pray hard that he will let me go. I want back the old Christina who's not in love. I'am dumped by myself.



I'am sooo crazy over Hyeon Bin & Joo Ji-hoon!!!!



*BEEP*
The minute I woke up, I received darn lots of SMS. I guess, my phone bill will burst la. Haiz.

Tomorrow's North District Camp. Bye Bye Sister. HAHA.
Finally, she's going for camp! (: Okay, I seems like a heartless sister. But who cares? I can own the computer the whole day, the bed for the whole night. YAYS!

I did my Emaths & Amaths homework today. GOSH. By the way, I think teachers, seriously have STM. They give the homework that we've already done before. & I was like, copying copying & copying even though teachers called REVISION.

Okay, good luck to those going for NDC tomorrow. I'll be visiting you guys tomorrow at Campsite. (:

Loves, Christina



Wednesday, September 06, 2006 | 9:38 PM
I woke up with a terrible nightmare today morning. Here's my nightmare.
I opened my eyes & saw the powerful rays of light shone into my room. I looked over to my clock. Oh Shit! It's already 2pm! I screamed. This is when I woke up from it & jumped up from my bed. I then heard my mum coming into my room & said, it's only 6.30am. OH, thank god! I'am not late for breakfast with Gayatri. I'am not late for the Biology Talk. HEH.

So, I went back to sleep again & only woke up at 8.45am. As usual, I rushed out of house just in time to meet Gayatri down at her block. We had Macdonals as breakfast! YAYS. Finally, my craving of Macdonals' Sausage Muffin is gone. (: After breakfast, we walked back to school for FDC training & Biology Talk respectively. Thank you Darls for having breakfast & hearing my blabberings on the way to school.

Let's fastforward. I totally don't understand what the DavidLane is speaking about. Okay, he's a scientist in the medical field I think. His ACCENT was great. I love his accent la. Ha. Indeed, I've gained lots of information on Cancer, p53 & mdm2 protein thru' this talk.
We were all crapping on the way back to school la. LOL. I kept laughing like nobody's business. Then, MrsQuek turned to me.
She said, "Christina, behave yourself. Come sit behind me." (Concidentally, there's a empty seat behind her)
I said, "ME? Er, OK." (Seems to be so sarcastic)
So I changed seats, but my laughing just can't stop. It carries on & on.

Reached school & went for lunch with Gary & ZhiYuan. AWWW. I had a horrible lunch la. They kept saying jokes & I left my Shrooms Burger half un-eaten la. They are totally sooo HORNY.

TALENTIME! Once again, the MANAGER's back to see them practice! WEET. Okay talentime people. BUCK UP la. Haha. You know who yeah?

Thats all. I'am tired. My eyes are closing. I'am dozing off.

Loves, Christina (:



Tuesday, September 05, 2006 | 6:51 PM
I don't think there's a need for password-ing my blog. Just to prevent people from spamming my blog with unneccessary comments & tags which were just so irritating. These people, simply can't control their impulsivity as they tag people's blog just to vent their frustrations. I suggest, go visit the doctor. It definitely helps. Trust me.

Well, I'am actually not quite surprised by these tags. Ever since we, NCOs had stepped up, I'am already prepared to receive such comments. It's inevitable. Some cadets may like you & others may hate you. So, here's a piece of advice to the NCOs, don't feel discouraged by these comments. Do what you think is right for the Unit because I know, this will defintely help the Unit in achieving our unaltered goals --- EUA Silver. I don't mind being the bad guy, scolding the cadets as we all wanted the best out of them. Let's work hard together. I know we can do it. &we will, with no doubts. (:

Yesterday:
Finally, we had our training again after a long break (3weeks). I was quite unhappy as I have to spend my Monday, the first day of HOLIDAYS, with Red Cross. Rahhh. &Eventually, the cadets ended up doing 30 pushups. The NCOs, had to do 90 pushups. Yeah, thank you MELVIN SIR for giving the girls (NCOs) a discount by doing only 60 pushups. &we din't even complained or utter a single word during the punishment. All we did, is to accept & go ahead with it. 'Cause we know what is right & wrong. But, the cadets? They howled & screamed at the top of their voices, "AH! PAIN!". Whatever, & now, I have to attend classes, copying notes slowly.
After training, I went to Melanie's house to complete my Biology Project even I was dead-tired & was about to drop dead. OH MY. I had a hard time going home from Melanie's house as its a landed property estate (Erm, I think so). So, she hailed a cab for me & I only have 13bucks with me. When I was about to reach home, the cab fare reaches 13bucks. I freak-ed out! Guess what I did? I told the taxi driver that I've only got 13 bucks. I requested him to drop me off & I shall walk home from there. However, the Uncle was reluctant to let me off.
He said, "Nevermind la. I drive you home. There's a coffeeshop nearby your house right?"
I said, "Ya Uncle."
He said, "Ok. You help me wash my taxi la while I go eat dinner."
I said, "Err..... (paused for very long)"
He said, "Have you washed cars before?"
I said, "Err, no."
He said, "I teach you la."
Okay, reached the coffeeshop near my house. He dropped me off there. I digged & paid my 13bucks to him. Taxi fare is $14.20. So, I still owed him $1.20.
He said, "Come, I take the bucket for you." (He went to the back of his taxi)
I picked up my phone & said, " Uncle, I call my friend to come down & give you the $1.20."
He said, "Then, you don't want to wash my taxi la?"
I said, "Er ya."
HELLO? I'am the princess at home. I don't do housework. &now, he's humiliating me by asking me to wash his bloody taxi. WTF la.
He continued, "AH! Then nevermind la." (He walked away)
I said, "Sorry ah Uncle."
He never reply me. Then I walked home, whispering to myself, "Stupid attitude he's got. Fuck la."
I reached home & I punched my Teddy Bear. I told this incident to my family & they laughed. =.=

Today
A stupid chain letter STARTED my day off NICELY. Thanks to Chong Qi Kang.
The content reads, If you don't send this SMS to 15people, then your Mum will die.
WTF. As you know, I'am a fillial daughter. Obviously, I don't want my Mum dead. So I forwarded this SMS to 15 people which is in Alphabetical Order.
Then, that BLOODY AngRen replied, I don't read Chinese.
I replied, Ask your Mum to read to you. (It was a BIG BIG mistake! The message was a curse on the Mother of that person! Shit.)
He said, She read already. She ask why you put a curse on her. She wants to talk to you tonight. You die ah. Hahahahahahahahaha.. (&the HAHA goes long enough to have 2 SMS)
I replied, You always lie.
He replied, Really la. I gave her your number. She will call you tonight. You're a dead rabbit.
I replied, Really ar?
He replied, Ya la.
I replied, What the Fuck la. You suck. Get lost la. I don't want talk to you anymore.
He replied, HAHA. Okay then. I bluff you anyway. I thought you will think I'am lying throughout. HAHA.
Okay, he thinks its funny. & I don't. Sorry ah AngRen, I don't have that sense of humor. You've got the sense of boliao-ness.
Had Emaths class then. Ignoring him the whole lesson. HAHA.
YAY! I passed my Amaths Common Test by 2marks la. So tyco. Thank God. He made my luck go WOOHA! He made me pass my most fearful subject. (:
Left class earlier due to my long-awaited dental appointment. History repeats itself again. I was late! My doctor was like, nagging at me. So I bit her accidentally. LOL. FYI, my braces are lavender in color now. WEET!

I'am typing with my aching muscles. I'am waiting for my mum to come home & have dinner with us. I'am dying to see her for no reason. Heh.

Loves, Christina



Sunday, September 03, 2006 | 9:46 PM
I've just finished all these in a night. From 7pm onwards till now without a break. PHEW.
  1. 'RED CROSS' word for the RC NoticeBoard
  2. Settling Training Plan for tomorrow
  3. Informing the various I/Cs regarding tomorrow's training
  4. Meddling with my RC Uniform

&all these were all given soo last minute. Haiz. I hate last minute work.

Okay, I'am still going crazy about the PRINCESS HOURS. I'am re-watching it again. ((:

There's still Biology project work with Melanie tomorrow after training as well. Haiz. I guess I'am going to stink her whole bedroom after 5 straight hours of training. Or rather, tortured by the cadets alive. Whatever.

I'am exhausted because of this love. When I'am leaning against my sister in the bus, how I wish, the one beside me was HIM instead of my sister. When I see couples on the streets holding hands & hugging each other, I was jealous & wished I was one of them who owned the love of my life. I've been crying every night because of not being able to have HIM right beside me. I've been listening to love songs every day. So sick of love songs. I'am a real idiot. A real fool. I should had faced up to my own feelings instead of hiding. I should had confessed & tell HIM about my feelings but I din't. It's all my fault that things turned out this way. I guess, it's due to the horoscope thingy. It says, Scorpios tend to hide their feelings. So, that's true.

Loves, Christina




Saturday, September 02, 2006 | 6:27 PM
Come to think of it, I kind of regretted not attending Lugan Sir's farewell party yesterday. I guess, he is like hoping for alot of the NDP people to attend as he's going to be away for 1 year or so. I missed the chance of seeing him for the last time. & the next time I could see him again is 1 year later. How sad. Okay. Sorry to sound as if he's about to die.

Oh well, there's Mass Accreditation for FD today at Campsite& none of the SengKang people went. Disappointing. I saw HongHui, Naqueh&Amirah there. For your information, I was bringing my sister there to famarlize herself with the Campsite as she will be going for the North District Camp. So, yeah.

Haiz, I'am about to finish the whole series of Princess Hours. I recommend this video la. It's so darn nice, just like, AI QING MO FAI SHI. (: You will get addicted to it.
How i wish I'am the Tai Zi Fei, then I can have two CHARMING Princes with me. HAHAHAH.
Nevermind. For now, I shall own only my Prince. Heh.

Even though its holiday, but I guess I'am getting stressed more than before. So frustrated because of the Pre-Preparation for RC International Bazaar. Everything's so last minute. Sighs again.








I wondered, why am i still holding on to a hopeless relationship like a fool. I rejected WeeSern again & again without giving him a chance at all. I felt so sorry for him. I wish, he had never ever met me at all. I wish, I had never fallen in love with HIM. I smiled because of HIM. I cried because of HIM. My mind's confused because of HIM. Everything & Anything. So this is what humans called, Love. Yeah, this love is tiring me out. Sooner or later, I will get killed by this love. I kept reminding myself, as long as he's happy, as long as he's well, I will definitely find my joy too. But it doesn't seem this way anymore. I want HIM to hold me in his arms & whisper those words into my ears. I just realised, we've being running around in circles, unable to pour out our feelings. Why are humans living in such a pathetic world?

Whatever. I'am not going to make myself go crazy. I'am not going to make myself go thinking about these problems which are not worth fretting.

Loves,
Christina





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