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Thursday, September 27, 2007 | 12:15 AM
当缘分真的走到了尽头时,那该舍得的,还是得放手。





Hey, I din't realise that my MYE results were so damn f***ing lousy. Lol. My Amath was E8 instead of that C6 I mentioned in the last post. & I jumped 5 grades! Oh my. I was the top two who improved that lot. But seriously, its kind of ashamed to know that my Amath grade was once a E8. >.<>

Also, Mdm Sharifah gave me a wake up call. Well, maybe not a wake up call. It's just kind of, reminding me of my committment. Because I still did badly for my SEQ. 14/25. Even if how good I am in my SBCS, but if my SEQ is that, I can never get an A for SS.


Really, this is good news. I'am beginning to like Albert Teoh. I know this is weird coming out from me, but seriously, I salute his way of motivating students. First, he uses reverse psychology. He tries to make his students hate him & then work hard to prove him wrong. Then, after his students had achieve results, he starts to give them encouragement. & His encouragement works more effective than anything else. Because he was once the teacher who constantly reprimanded us for being arrogant, complacent, and having stupid attitudes. Imagine the teacher whom



Monday, September 24, 2007 | 3:16 AM
Well Well Well.
Let's see how I fare for Prelims after getting back most of the papers. (Except Chemistry P2 & History) With comparisons to MYE, I can conclude that I did IMPROVE quite a lot. Though, I've still not yet met the targets that I set for myself at the beginning of last year.

Emath, from a C5 to a A1. Passed with flying colours! ;D
Social Studies, from a C5 to B3. Still quite alright despite I'am quite furious with myself over the SEQ part.
Amath, from C6 (Barely pass) to a B3. Applause please!
English, dropped from A1 to B3. Oh whatever.
HMT, still maintaining at B4, I think.
Physics, from C5 to B3! Wow wow wow. My worst subject?
Biology, like fuck, from B3 to B4. AHHHHHHHH~!

Did I like miss out any? Yayyyy! Mummy, where's my 30 bucks for scoring an A & mostly Bs? I need the money badly for my Tamagochi! Lol. & Finally, I'am back to my Sec 3 standard.
Way to go man!

Time Check: 3.10PM.
To Do List: - Start slamming the books. Especially Amath & Bio.
To Eat List: - Energy giving Bars
- Chocolates


I'm drowning here without you..



Sunday, September 23, 2007 | 4:52 AM
如果爱情可以预先期限,那么, 我可以跟你预约一辈子吗?





名为爱情的种子已在我的心里悄悄的种下,只为你而种下..

Just as Prelims are over, it's already time to start preparing for Os. The end of Prelims mark the start of Os. The most important and crucial period. Because, it determines the path you wanna take in future.

Well, Im feeling kind of guilty now. The reason is, I only did 3 Amath other school prelims paper & 1 Physics prelim paper for the whole weekend. I should be doing more than these. My brain needs more workout & practices. But, practically, for the whole weekend, I was just slacking my time away. My so-called 'precious' time.

Thanks to Sean Hean that I cried in class on Friday & then had nightmares on Friday & Saturday night. That video signifies the importance of religious harmony. The video showed a Muslim guy being dissected (With his brain, ribs, lungs, heart all cut open & many more) by Christians. Oh by the way, I cried not because of the nauseating images, but its because I was thinking about, Humanity. Where has all the humanity gone to? Why are people doing those in the name of washing their sins off? This is just so cruel. Afterall, it's a human being. A life. We shouldn't be doing such things to our fellow kind. & all my nightmares were those situations during the conflict. It was so bloody. All the blood was squirting everywhere. Toren posters shrewn all over. Dead bodies lying on the ground. Fires were raging. Oh my, & I woke up with a jump. & So, I made up my mind to join the Red Cross Humanitarian Network after Os. Perhaps, I'am not choosing VIP anymore. Also, I want to donate part of money to some kind of foundation (It still all depends after my schooling). I want to help those in need & prevent bloodshed or so whatever. I'am not doing this because of the Nobel Prize. -.-

Alright, that jerk whom hacked Pris. That fucker. That sucker.

如果忘了替那颗重在心理的爱情种子浇水, 那么, 种子是不是不会继续长大?



Thursday, September 20, 2007 | 4:16 PM
Just had another fight with that darn sister of mine at school.
She totally spoil my whole mood. I was already feeling devasted after receiving my freaking Bio results (I only scored a fucking B4). & Thank you so much for letting me see you in the porch area with your bunch of friends & made me scream infront of many.


It's not that I want to look down on you & your friends or something, but they never proved that they can do something of use. All they did was to lead you astray & taught you all those uncrude vulgarities. If your results were at least like mine when I was in Sec 2, I wouldn't mind giving you as much freedom as you want. But, the truth is, you never once scored a result like mine. Right here, I'am trying my very best to be a good role model for you yet you're being the rebellious kid. Tell me, do you want to end up in ITE like I always predicted? Why are we sisters so different? Amongst the two of us, you were always the best & were always the expected one to get all the rewards and good results. I'am nothing when I was in primary school. Then, slowly & with huge efforts, I proved to Mum that I can actually do it, & let her realise that, you're not the only one who is good at studies. However, you din't live up to the expectations.
I know, you're already a teen & need your own privacy. But, don't forget, you're still the youngest in the family. We still want to protect you. Mum doesn't want to see you end up in ITE. Either do I. I even hoped you could outshine me. I want to leave all the best stuffs for you. I want to see you excel in your studies. & do whatever that I regretted not doing.
Yes, this is what you called pressure. But, only with pressure, you can excel well.







Deeep sigh. Breath in, breathe out.
It seemed like a huge rock had been lifted off me.

Heyy, wow, Mr Teoh was weird today. Lol. He gave us somekind of encouragement. It's no longer reverse psychology. YAHHHOOOO~!


Just a stolen glance would do.



Tuesday, September 18, 2007 | 4:35 PM
Plain disappointment is what I get after working so hard during Sept Hols.
So, we got back our English P1, Emath P1, SS SBCS, & Physics P1.
Part 1 of the result slip
English P1-- 41/60 My usual standard was around 45-48.
Emath P2-- 62/80 I'm somehow expecting a 69 or a 70.
SS SBCS-- 20/25 (Not including SEQ yet) A bloody conclusion statement costs me 3 marks.
Physics P1-- 26/40 This is the worst of all.
In the eyes of others, my results are quite alright. But, that kind of results aren't satisfactory.
Because, I know I can do better & I need to push myself further in order to perform to my best.
& I believe the only measures to success are winning & reaching for goals.


I'am not looking forward to getting Amath, History, & Chem paper.

Anyway, went to Buigs yesterday straight away after the last paper. Wow, great. After such long period of mugging, I can once again go on a shopping spree. Together with Pris, Yen 'ah', Fang, Jiayi & Alicia, we got our hands occupied with those shopping bags. Haha. Sometimes, lactic acid accumulation isn't that bad afterall.

One whole english lesson of screaming from Emily. Another half a period of math lesson was Albert's nags. Only Sharifah's one was interesting & perking.
But of course, teachers nag & scold for certain reasons.

Ciao! I'm off to have my KFC meal! ;D
The faded scent of your roses...



Saturday, September 15, 2007 | 12:15 AM
我感谢老天爷此给我一个像您这样的慈母。
我感谢您对我的容忍,与体谅。
那晚,您用着您温柔的语气告诉我,“不要给自已过于的压力,只要尽力就好了。没有人会怪你考的不理想。”您用着您温暖却粗糙的手掌把我脸上的泪珠给擦掉。那双手似乎叙说了您所收过的种种煎熬。那时候的我,看到了感到十分内疚与心痛。因为您为了我们姐妹俩而忙碌了十多年,从未休息过。难怪人家都说,身为人母是个全年无休的职业。您给的拥抱就像一把灯,把我那黑漆漆的夜晚给亮起了。我多么希望您能这样一直地把我捧在手心里。然后,眼角看到了您偷偷地掉眼泪时,我告诉自已以后一定要让您过这悠闲的日子。我一定要努力赚大钱,使您每天都能舒舒服服的。
我常常用您当作写抒情文的人物,而也用了这些文章来考到好的作文成绩,但我所写的全都是我的真心话。我一直都不敢告诉您我有多么尊敬您,把您当作我的榜样,因为我害怕我会在您的面前流露着感情。
我真希望您能陪着我走完我的人生,可是你曾经说过人最终是会离开人世的,所以我得靠自已。我向天主祈祷,求菩萨保佑,只希望您能见健康康的。娘啊,多亏您,我才有今天!


Oh my. I can't believe I just wrote all those in Chinese. Those emotions are raging inside me now..



Saturday, September 08, 2007 | 6:55 PM
.....

Let me think, what was I trying to say just now?


Oh yes, this is weird. Very weird. But it's worth celebrating, I can say. At least, I'm no longer affected emotionally and mentally. Maybe, this love is fading. Perhaps, my heart is healing. How great, because it is seriously tiring me out. I'am feeling so much relieved. Like a big humongous rock has been lifted off my heart.

I hate humanities. x 1 000 000

I'am trying so hard to get all the facts into my head. & I'am leaving out Education, British Welfare State & Healthcare out. These few topics are tough to remember. Now, I'am only left with Sustainable Development. AHHHHHH. My Bio & History! My Math!

I can't wait for Os to end. & I wanna go Show (Luo Zhi Xiang)'s Singapore Concert on 1 Dec. Mummy, pleaseeeeeee.

Hear the last goodbye
& the last wave



Friday, September 07, 2007 | 1:25 AM
See, I told ya, the invention of computer isn't that great anyway. It's serve as a means of distraction. So, I advise you NOT, NEVER EVER study in front of the computer. Because I tried studying in front of it just now but still, here I am, online. Eventually, I just practically crammed every fact into my brain & ended up, nothing is digested and absorbed.

How great! I switched back to my old modem (not wireless) with my own computer. No more lags, No more hangs, No more 'Page cannot be displayed'. & I can watch my Magicians of Love for the third time on Youtube.

Oh, I regretted not agreeing to study with Jason for this whole week. Damn. Couldn't really concentrate at home. You see, the computer & stuffs. & I'am stressing myself out. Zits & pimples are popping out again. Still, my sunburnt's not ok.
Haiz, my Bio. Body, Enzymes, Hormones, Digestion. I've not even started on Bio revision. Why is everyone studying for Bio first, instead of Humanities? Perhaps, I should start tomorrow. I shan't let down Mrs Quek. My favourite teacher in Seng Kang. If I ever score well for Bio, it must have been Mrs Quek's efforts. She's practically my source of motivation.



Sweetie & Mrs Quek ;D
Oh, that was taken during Sports Carnvial on Friday. Yeah, I was already sun burnt at that time. Around 10am? That wasn't my natural blush ok? -.-
& I told JingKai that dustbin about my sunburnt, he said something about my future boyfriend. Like, erm, what has it got to do with 'him'? & Who knows, who's my future boyfriend? Maybe, thats the dustbin language. Normal mature humans like me would take a lifetime to understand.

Time check: 12.51 AM
Feeling so ever energetic

& Kaiting's going to Japan for the exchange programme. Great man! She can get my Hello Kitty stuffs. Better than pining hopes on Alson. Haha. & Not only that, it's so much honorable ok? Seriously, I'am proud of her & glad that she passed both auditions.

I hate blogs with bright colours. Let me name some of these colours, red, lime green, yellow, pink. Oh, & now, there's a super trendy type of blogskin. Those with flakes moving here and there. I thought, Christmas's here already. Thank you so much for reminding of the approaching Christmas Day with those red & green colours, & those flakes.


Drawing a heart in my Diary



Wednesday, September 05, 2007 | 12:27 PM
This blog is a distraction. Computer, handphone, telly too.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH. How am I supposed to study with all these distractions?!
Just another 3 days to the Social Studies paper & also, the 'official' start of Prelims. I'am seriously running out of time & here I am, blogging!? I so wanna kill myself, stab myself & strangle myself. Lol.

OH GOD, SAVE ME!!!
& Now, I am praying to God for some kind of miracle. -.-

Sometimes, miracles do happen. But then, sometimes, it doesn't. Miracles exist because people created it. So, maybe, perhaps, I have to create my own miracle out of my hardwork.

I wish I was the 9-year-old kid in Hong Kong who went up to University at such age. That genius.

Slowly, the truth will unfold



Tuesday, September 04, 2007 | 1:00 PM
HI PEOPLE!!!
IMMA BACK FROM MY MIA MISSION! -.-

Oh god, I can't stand Yvonne, the idiotic one, staring at my computer screen & also, at my fingers. She's really a dumb case. You know, now that I'am using the mIo modem, it's freaking slow, so I switched to my old computer instead. She's simply so 'innocent' to write her blog entry on a piece of paper first & then intended to type it in her entry later on, at one straight go. I don't know whether to call her stupid ass or innocent freak. Haha, but either one, it sounds the same, isn't it? Now, she put the paper at my nose & insisted that I should try smelling it because, the paper smells like strawberry (The pen that she used has a strawberry scent). & She DID INSIST & tried all means to delete those crap about her by pinching me & hitting me all over.

Alright, this surely isn't September holidays. Let's call it the 'Pure Mugging Week'. Only started on SS, Chem, Physics & both Maths. Just a bit of here & there. & I'am getting kind of worried. It's prelims. Not, MYEs or something.

& Worst still, my skin is still peeling due to that Friday-- Sports Carnival. I can say, this is the worst sunburnt experience I've got. & something unhappy happened. But again, my dearie brightened up the rest of my afternoon.

Maybe I should get back to my books now since it's already 1pm. It's Physics time!





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