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Monday, March 30, 2009 | 2:28 AM

The month of March had been a rather hectic one, with SRC carnival matches hogging the weekends and weekdays packed with pure mugging sessions for the Semestral Assessment. Despite the month is coming to an end already and all the major events are over, there's still no remaining time to let down the huge stone within, for even a day. Now, embarking on a new month, I'm now forced to start this whole cycle once again, having to juggle between studies, friends, family and passion.

A C grade for Chemistry have probably woke me up from my comfort zone. I don't know if I should appear to be upset because it's not as what I expected or be relieved that I scored a C. Then, Biology paper wouldn't be any better I guess because it was horribly done. No proper time allocation for per sections, resulting in the loss of marks here and there. Math paper, big sigh, having to endure an unreasonable lecture from Lim Jiin had already revealed how badly we've done for that subject. But whatever la, I can't even freaking do Probability, and it's not like I haven't been trying hard, I've at least done the TYS 3 times okay. General Paper's screwed, I'd land up with a S grade, and that's for sure. Chances for a A/B for Econs paper seem slim as well.

So many committments, so little time. Oh well.
Till the next post,
-C

Thursday, March 05, 2009 | 5:01 AM

Some of my seniors may already having butterflies in their stomach, some may be feeling excited, some may not even take it to heart because either they will do well for As or that they know they didn't do their best, and they are expecting results that their efforts would reflect.
And amongst some of us, for example, my classmates & friends, I bet they are feeling excited, because their A Level Chinese results are coming out at the same time too.
But whatever it is, **************************
Bestow you guys some lucky stars :)

I'm really expecting quite some different reactions tomorrow. Sylvia would probably cover her grade and refuse to let me probe and ask her about her grade, regardless whether it's an A, B or C. Pui Wah would either scream/laugh loudly because she's gonna grab an A. Well, I can't think of Sandu's and Jan's expression, but I guess their expressions would reveal a glimpse of joy. Fat Cherie said she'd cry if she's gonna get a C, but come on la, you A class leh, how to get a C! Unless you really that unlucky la, like you stepped on dog poo before your exam? Hahah.

I'll be there for you when you need a shoulder to lean on, 24/7.
Don't worry too much about tomorrow, everything's gonna be fine. :)
Belief in yourself, because everyone around you (including me) believes you can definitely do it.

And it would be the release of the Project Work results next week! I'm kind of looking forward to it, but it makes me emo once again, because I miss Project Work seriously. Despite the heavy work load, the frequent late nights trying to rush out the drafts, and meetings every now and then, I enjoyed those times together with my fantastic group. :) I can say, Veronika always does the analysis part, Jon does the crapping part when we need more words for word count, Liting with her minutes well typed out, Yuzhou helping me out with the coordination of the whole group and the reducing of word count in Written Report until 10pm at my house, and when everyone comes together, work is done! And they are all quality work okay! Not some anyhow put together rojak work! Uh aw, Project Work totally spiced up my J1 days. :)

Alright, till the next post,
-C

Labels: A Level Results 2009

Tuesday, March 03, 2009 | 1:35 AM

After knowing how hard it is to even get into some unpopular courses in University, I had some kind of adrenaline rush. I could feel my heartbeat rate increased, perspiring a little more than usual and everything seemed to be in slow motion. I realized I've always been detached from reality, and now, I really need to focus all my energy to excel well. I don't want to end up as the 10th percentile, standing only 10% chance to get into my desired course. And though I know, it's near impossible to get into NUS Faculty of Medicine, I'm still willing to believe that 'I M Possible'. :)

& I worry, worried that my loved one isn't there to accompany me through this tough period & wouldn't be there to reap the fruits of labour together with me. For all these while, she has been my pillar of support, and now, there could a possibility that she's falling ill. I know, of course I know, everything's unconfirmed yet, but still, there's just a part within me can't help pondering about the implications. And I bet, this unconfirmed situation would have to last for another year, for her next check-up. In the meantime, I pray, and I pray hard; am willing to believe, & believe in whatever methods that could allow that small little 'tumor' to remain benign, and not maglinant.

Mothers© By Christina M. Gunlock
The word Mother is a synonym for so many words it is incredible.
A Doctor, the many cuts, bruises & aches every child gets is an emergency & must be attended to. With a motherly kiss & a questioning 'Is it all better?' The ailment which was such a tragedy only a moment before, is no longer a problem.
A Comforter, after a nightmare, a mother's embrace while singing Amazing Grace, assuring her child all is well & the child is no longer afraid.
A Chef, the meals thrice daily always must be tended to, each an intriguing balance of minerals, vitamins, proteins & who knows what else, but mother.
A Detective, when a favorite puppy or blanket is missing, Mother is on the case. If the item is to be found, it is cause for celebration, perhaps a chocolate chip? But if the lost item is gone, Mother is there with an encouraging embrace & a sincere 'I am sorry.'
A Beautician, there with the perfect necklace, or pin to complete the ultimate dress-up outfit.
A Decorator for when her baby is now a teenager in need of more mature surroundings.
And most importantly, a Mother. My Mother.
All these words and more are true in describing the word 'Mother', but can not come close to describing the actual person who performs the job. Awe, which is the feeling you get thinking about your mother & what a special person she is. She always says or does the right thing.
A surprise awaking on your birthday with her sitting on your bed whispering 'Happy Birthday!'
A quiet, loving embrace when a dear friend or pet dies.
An excited 'Yes!' when you won your first horse show ribbon.
A forgiving hug after you throw a temper-tantrum & you realize what you did.
A quiet 'Goodnight, I love you.' At bedtime.
The confiding about your first real crush.
Mother I can't thank you enough for being you.
The times you've said 'I've failed!' That is never so. All it is, is another learning experience.
No one can be you but you.
Thank you for being a mother to me.
I Love You.

Till the next post,
-C

Labels: Mothers