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Wednesday, November 29, 2006 | 10:01 AM
Okay. I've decided. I'am going to run away from home tonight.
LOL. Haha, no way man! I was just kidding luh.
What I meant was, I've got a First Aid duty for CO camp tonight. & I'am staying overnight there with PeiJie. Would I be so dumb to run away from home & cut myself away from all the comfort at home?

Anyway, the matter with my father's resolved. Everything's back to normal except that I've been showing him the face & not talking to him. Yes, I still hate him.
However, I'am much more worried for my mum. She's caught a cold & still going to work despite it. Having a fever yesterday night. So, Sista & I decided to do all the housework before leaving house for shopping later. {We hope so. Haha.} My mum's the best & so noble! Yes, I still love her like before.

As you see, I hate one parent & love another one. ;DD

Alright! I need to get dressed for the shopping later. Visiting Priscilla at her workplace --- Parkway Parade for her Bossini Discount. YAY!

;Loves, Christina



Tuesday, November 28, 2006 | 11:52 PM
FUCKING FATHER.
I hate him to the core man.
So disguisted to have his blood flowing in mine.
Felt like slashing myself & let the blood spirts out. WTF la.
Idiotic father of mine. Idiotic uncle of mine. Idiotic grandfather of mine as well.
Why the whole family like that? Why did my mum married into this family?
Why did I ever chose to come to this world & suffer in the clutches of my freaking father?
So childish, still playing maple. I would rather you go out & play with women la.
Then mummy can file for a divorce. I tell you, if mummy ever file for a divorce, you're so going to die. 'cause you will be left with nothing. The whole Choy family will definitely hates you, & treats you like nobody's shit. Your both daughters will never opt for your custody. Everything will be gone. Your health will also deteriote in no time. Smoking, having maggie mee for every meal, ate salt like sweets & more of your stupid habits.
Call me unfilial or whatever. I can go even futher to badmouth & curse you. I hope you die soon. So that, there will be a pest lesser in the world. You're just a burden to us & the society. Die of throat cancer, stomach cancer & many other more diseases la. You think I care? You think I will cry at your funeral? Or maybe, I won't even turn up for your funeral. Worst, I might go insane & spoil your funeral by creating havoc there. Try me.
I've even scolded fuck at you. What more I don't dare? Mummy always told me, hes your dad. Ah whatever, its all crap now. I no longer treat you as my dad. I treat you like a rubbish cleaner with the fucking attitude & the expression you always wore on your face. If I could, I would have slapped you right into your face. Plus, did you ever treated me like your daughter? I can still remember, who was the one who locked me outside the house when I was still a primary school kid? It was you. You made me cried the whole night, like a abandoned kid, knocking on my whole house door. It was mummy who helped me back in. To me, my only parent is mummy. Not you.
Bianess. Always siding with Sista. Ever since Sista was borned, I seemed to lack of fatherly love. You joked around with her. Laughed heartily because of her existance. Tickled her. I never blame Sista for that. 'cause it wasn't something that she could control. She was just so cute as a red tomato. So, I blamed you. As an adult, you could have balanced that out.
Whenever I did something wrong or scored badly for my examinations, you used your way to resolve all these--- Cannings. You never taught me morales. You never used the love way. Mummy was always the one who taught me. It was mummy's words which guided me along this path. Once, in my year two in secondary school, the padlock to my locker was missing. Someone stole it. & Priscilla was the one who informed me. I was so worried as all my important stuffs are inside the locker. I cried & threw tantrums. You picked up the can & started whacking me. You said, it was irritating to hear you cry. All you could have done was to console me. But you dint. The next day, I went to school with marks on my hands & limps. It was mummy who then be the middleman & asked me to patch up with you. Friends asked me what were those marks. I replied, I fell down. How dumb can I be? I should had said the truth.
So what if I always spend my time on RC? Its all part of my learning. I've learnt leadership skills, human relations & many more. Why can't you just try to support me for once? You're always there scolding me for using too much of computer. You scolded because you wanted to use it for your gaming. RC is part of my responsibility. I have to bear the burden. But it's just another few months & I'am stepping down. It's the last thing that I'am planning for the cadets. It's your business that you're not responsible. I liked being responsible. Thats me & its what mummy had been moulding me to for the past 15 years.
'Spending money is all you know.' you always said that. Yeah, spending money is my forte. Because, I'am still growing up. Afterall, I'am still a teenager. I have my materialistic needs. I need to satisfy them.
You never try to understand me. We've never got a chance to have a heart-to-heart talk. All I ever wanted was your care, concern & love. Who would want a violent & abusive man as their father? Why can't I have that one whole happy family just like before? Why must you break up everything? Why must you spoil your once-so-good image in my heart? It had always been my wish since young --- To be your favourite pet. It was too much a desire for a little girl at that point of time. & now, desire turns to hatred. It was once a small small wish of mine. Now, time can't be rewinded. I can't help it but you forced me to.
You really sucked big time. You ruined my whole life. I wished I've never been in this world. I wished I've never got you as my father. Mummy was telling me, how much she regretted marrying you. I pitied her. She should had opened her eyes big & see your truth colors back then. I admit, I was crying when I wrote this post. 'cause I never realise that I hated you so much till I could just blabber everything out here.



Heart's fluttering. WEEEE~!
'cause of some reasons luhh. (: Grinning.

Anyway, was late for the cleaning of RC room today. 'cause I overslept till around 8.45am. LOL. So, reached school at around 10.30am & get down to work. Cleaned cleaned & cleaned. Carried stuffs around & blah. Darn tired la. 'cause my muscles are aching. {& I don't know why they ached}
Then, rushed off to TM at 12.30noon. It was raining cats & dogs. BOOM! & Calvin sent Zamira off to her LRT station first 'cause there was only one umbrella. Then, Gayatri, PeiJie, me & Calvin went under the rain & ran to the bus stop.
Sat on the bus & saw Nicole boarding the bus. Haha, concidence la.
Speed up & went to the Postoffice to get my MoneyOrder for the renewal of locker done. The queue's bloody long & slow la. I was there counting how many steps more to the counter. LOL.
Next, decided to buy my printer's ink as it's running low. & I need it urgently to print my camp plan out for tomorrow's AOP. So, we head for Challenger's. Ah, it was closed due to some renovations in the building.
How disappointing. However, we went to the next nearest outlet of Challenger's. Eastpoint, at Simei. Yeah, near to my house. A 5-10 minute walk there. & we went home first since I hate walking around with my school uniform & shoes. Had a change of clothes & off to Simei!
Bought the ink, & shopped around the mall. Well, I really need to save up money. I've got too many things to buy. Ohno.
&HOME SWEET HOME! Anyway, my aunt just sent me her buffet order for her ROM cum Housewarming on 9th & 10th Dec. 'cause Sista & I are incharge of printing & designing the tags for these orders. {Thanks to my mum's stupid idea. LOL.} Oh yes, my CampUnity clashes with my aunt's ROM cum Housewarming. Which means, I have to rush home straight after breaking camp & then go to her house. Hoping to stay there till late night with my cousins. ;DD
Alright! I shall end here today. & gotta rush my camp plan which is supposed to be handed in by today.

;Loves, Christina
So-going-to-die-tomorrow



Monday, November 27, 2006 | 10:47 PM
RAWRRRRRRRR.

I wished for a breakdown & cry out loud. For once, 5 people bugging me about camp stuffs. & my window kept appearing the orange signal.
Sorry Mummy if I shouted at you again. But, you're really senseless la. Ask me about eating roti prata for breakfast tomorrow when I'am so fucking stressed up.

Was supposed to have Chemistry lesson at 9. But, Miss Ong cancelled it. So, I had no excuses to slack but go for FDC straightaway. Was superduper high during training. & I don't know why. After training, had camp meeting for like 10minutes. Then, talentine. The rest went to the hall for practice. But, Derek, ZhiQi, me & Sista was playing table-tennis & a parent approached us. Yeah la. She wanted to know more about our school 'cause of her son. As you know, the P6s just gotten their results & need to choose their ideal secondary schools. Of course, we brought her around the school. Advertised CO as well. How good we are. Red Cross helping CO. LOL. Anyway, cut it short la. Sista & I went back to the hall & slacked there. 3 hours or so, we're already at home.

A short post for today. No more banana post.

;Loves, Christina (:



Sunday, November 26, 2006 | 9:56 PM
Looking back at my primary school days. Time really flies.
We've indeed changed lots. From looks to personality. From personality to habits.
The times when we had our PE & after all that sweat, we would still play monkey in the container classroom.
The times when I crapped so much with SeanChan & screwed up my PSLE. {& this is how I ended up in SKSS >.<}
The times when I acted infront of the chinese class with Pearlyn.
Bewildered at how innocent we can be & how much we've changed.
I really miss the ignorant times. It's only that time when I could act on impulse & pretend not to know everything.
I really miss my primary school friends. We laughed together, played & joked. I could still remember vaguely what we did during our recesses. Haha. Always imitating Joanne & her admirer. How fun.
Now, everything's different. The world had changed. We revolved around the world instead of having the world revolve around us.
To me, recess now seems like a breather. A 30minutes break to let me settle all my CCA stuffs & relax my brain cells. If I ever do those things I did before in primary school, people will definitely look at me at a different perspective & mock at me.
I could no longer crap so much with Haslinda now 'cause I've got to think for my future & work hard towards Os.
Plus, secondary school friends arent really true friends. They could stab you from the back. Thats what backstabbers means.
Anyway, yeha.

Sorry if I'am being emotional here. 'cause in another 2months or so, I will then be facing another big crisis in my life. O Levels.

;Loves, Christina



Just ended my tution at 12.07 noon. Well, I mentioned having Physics tution yesterday. But, I woke up today morning & realised that I've left my Physics TYS at school. >.< Which means, I have to drop the idea of having Physics tution & changed it to Chemistry tution instead.

Hmm, woke up at around 9.30am. Had a real hard time waking myself up. Was so dead tired. &plus, I was dreaming about some romantic scenes when Mummy woke me up. AHHH, so I was moody until my tutor came at 10am.
Tution's alright afterall. Acids, Bases & Salts are somehow easier than I thought. Maybe because of my tutor's teaching method. But, I was quite embarrassed when I showed him my report book. &tadah, he talked to me about my grades. I mean, he compared my EOY grades to my MYE grades. &yeah, at least I improved by abit, tinny winny improvement.

Tomorrow's chemistry class at school again. For one whole week. Oh my. But, I hope MissOng allows us to do SPA. 'cause I so love doing titration! WEE~ Titration's fun !!!!

Here's my to-do-list:
  1. Check for mistakes in the camp plan. Finalise it & send it to the camp committee.
  2. Send over the cheque to the locker company for renewal of my locker.
  3. Lend & photocopy the chinese assignment paper from Melanie or someone. 'cause I lost mine.
  4. Finish up all my homework & assignments by this week. {Hopefully, I can.}
  5. Oh yes, not forgetting. The campfire item for CampUnity. Well, it's not so urgent. Afterall, I'am not the section leader. Haha.

No more I guess, or rather, I hope. Thats all. Might be blogging again at night or something. Byes.

;Loves, Christina =DDD




Saturday, November 25, 2006 | 10:51 PM
I was blog-hopping just now.
A sense of relief came over me. So glad that he had fun during these 5 days. (:
&how he survived through those tough activities.
I was even laughing so loudly while Sista & Mummy was watching videos. Haha.
Sorry, I can't keep the happiness within me.

Anyway, yes. Talking about my baby cousin's full month anniversary. His name's Choy Kian Ming. Heh. He superduper cute la. I don't dare to carry him 'cause hes small sized. {Aiyah! Forget to take photo of him or else, I could post it in here.} I told my uncle, how I wished I could be like him, always be a baby, no worries, no stress. &guess how my 4th uncle replied me? He said, 'Can la. Ask your mummy buy the baby bed, & put you inside.' Haha. So lame. {I bet, if WenJun---My cousin sees this, he will reply Whatever & Cool man! Yeah, hes so addicted to 'I not stupid too'.} Left halfway 'cause I'am supposed to attend MissMel's wedding. & returned back to my uncle's house at around 5. Had lots of fun with my cousins. Especially, WenJun&WenKang. Took their guns & went bang bang bang at me. &chatted all about maplestory. =.= However, some other cousins dint turn up. Expected, my 1st & 2nd uncle dint turn up. Miss them so badly. Nevermind. There's still ChineseNewYear to see them. ;DD

Oh, MissMel's wedding. My gosh, she looks so different & sooooo prettaye. Nice la. The wedding's like so grand can? Congratulated her & took a group photo with the bride & bridegroom. Aw MissMel, there goes your singlehood but you're about to start the married life! LOL. Left awhile since its too much a hassle to get the food to eat & also, it's too crowded. Image, half of the school was there. Not including, teachers. Alright. Congratulations once again! Grins.

Thats all. Tired. Physics tution tomorrow again. Yeah, home tutor's arriving at my house for the first time in my whole holidays.

;Loves, Christina



Nothing better to do, so I changed my blogskin again!
Anyway, I know my sense of blending of colours are lousy.
BOOHOOOS.

Later's mass family gathering. Er not really. It's my newborn baby cousin's 1st month birthday or whatever you call it.
I guess my 1st & 2nd uncle's not turning up. Also, my freaking father won't be going.
'Cause they are at loggerheads ever since I was in primary school. Don't ask me why. I seriously don't give a freaking care. 'Cause, my 1st uncle's attitude is almost the same as my freaking father's. However, I liked my 2nd uncle.
But no sweat! I will play like crazy & catch up with my cousins! I've not seen them since Chinese New Year. Aw, how sad.
Did I just mentioned play like crazy? Not so likely, I suppose. 'Cause most of my cousins are guys. Unless, I play xbox with them. >.< {HELLO? I'am a refined young lady ok? Haha.}

;Loves, Christina



I missed you so. Real bad.
I could even relate you to everything that I do.
Signed in MSN, first thing I did was to type your email address into the search column & see whether you're online.
Whipped up a meal for my sista, & I could even tell my sista, 'I want to cook for him. How I wished, the person sitting beside me is Him.'
Hugged my stuffed toy so hard, pretending it was you.
Looked through all the messages that you've sent me.
These five days, I waited & waited. Yearned for you to come online, & your chats.
But, when I managed to come online justnow, I couldnt see you.
At that moment, my heart ached. After so long, & I still can't manage to see you. All because of my stinky father, who kept hogging onto the computer & trying to level up his darn maple character. He went overboard & switched off the computer without asking me. However, Mummy could sense that how much I wanted to use the computer once I reached home from the mall.
All I wished now, is to have your MSN status as Online & just your message.

;Loves, Christina



Friday, November 24, 2006 | 1:37 PM
Today's the day! YAY!
AHHH wait! I've got a phone call. 'Ring! Ring!'

Oh yes! Mummy called home! Which means, shopping today again! WEEEE!
I'am going shopping later! I'am going shopping later~!
Okay, I admit, I'am crazy over shopping.
Gotta get my 'TheBox' blouse! YAY YAY YAY !

Yes, just called PeiJie & told her to send me the F&B stuffs by tonight. One thing settled.
& also, I've MSN-ed Calvin to ask him to send me the FD lesson plan by tonight as well. Another thing settled!
Then, I could ease my mind now. (:

I've got to reach home at 7 tonight to watch my television show & check whether his MSN status is online. HEH.
Ohhhkkkayy. My dearest little Sista wants to play her darn childish neopets. Hahah.

;Loves, Christina (:
So-in-a-lalala-mood



Thursday, November 23, 2006 | 9:25 PM
I SO LOVEEE SHOPPINGGG!
Went to TM to shop with Mummy & Sista just now. Bought my skirt jumper @ 77th street. Finally, I've longed for that skirt ever since the first time I saw it at FarEast. Also, I bought a polka dot hairband, which arouses Sista's jealousy. Haha.
Anyway, Mummy needed to replenish the canned food stocks @ home. So, we went down to NTUC. Well, I felt like a grown-up there. LOL. One darn funny thing. When we were queueing up to pay for our stocks, Sista spotted a guy there looking at condoms. WTH la. At NTUC?! Somemore, there were so many kiddies around! Then, out of curiousity, I spied at him. Indeed! He paid for the condoms. LOL. I tried to keep the laughter within me. So, I burst out laughing after he walked out of the supermarket. I was thinking, how come he come here to buy condoms?! This is supermarket man. Won't he be embarrassed? He should go to 7-11 ma! Hahahaha.
&Home Sweet Home for my television shows. Project Superstar. Forget it la. I will try my best not to watch the guys' competing. NONE ARE HANDSOME la! For goodness sake.
I will support Daren & ZhangLeSheng.

Ah! JingKai aka Dustbin asked me for CalvinPohChengHwee's email because of their Bravo Platoon's campfire mass conversation. Why come ask me la?! I Charlie Platoon lei! Trying to make me jealous arh, DUSTBIN! LOL.

End of entry.

;Loves, Christina



Watching the video, hugging my pillow, dreaming that the pillow could just turn into him. *peeboo!*
Back to reality & dropped a tear.
Why is it so pathetic?

WEEEE! I whipped up a meal for my sister. LOL.
Had porridge & shrimp wanton just now. Well, I think it isnt that nice afterall.
The shrimp's somehow 'hard' inside but yummy on the outside.
&& the porridge seemed uncooked.
Haiz, now you know why I always almost flunk my HomeEcons & why I din't take up F&N for my subject combinations.

Edited the camp proposal & blah blah.
Getting so frustrated with the camp. Bloody hell. So many mistakes. Plus, those mistakes were so precised. What the fuck la. Kept rejecting the stupid plan.
Now, I somehow hate SengKang Red Cross Youth.

Totally moodless to blog.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.



Wednesday, November 22, 2006 | 5:51 PM
Feeling darn bored. So, personality tests again to kill time!


You Are a Coy Flirt!
You're not so much a flirt as the type of girl who draws flirts inWhile you look like you're just relaxing, secretly you've got your game onA little look here, a little wink there... you give men the encouragement they craveAnd in return, they flirt up a storm with you - while you just sit and smile
What Kind of Flirt Are You?


Hmmm... Maybe He's Interested!
He seems to be giving you mixed or muted signalsWhich may mean you've been giving him the wrong messagesWhen he pauses to notice you, give him a little more attention.A little encouragement may go a long way with this guy!
Is He Into You?


You Are Friends With Potential
There's a little spark going on here, no question about itWill this develop into a hot romance? Look to your guy friend for clues.Does he flirt with all his female friends? Or are you an exception?If he's giving you special treatment, you've won a part of his heart already.
Is He More Than a Friend?


Your Love Song Is
Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson
"Maybe you've been through this beforeBut it's my first time so please ignoreThe next few lines cause they're directed at you I can't always be waiting, waiting on you I can't always be playing, playing your fool"
You've been waiting for love, and you're not going to wait any longer!
What Love Song Are You?


Guys Like That You're Sensitive
And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of wayYou just get most guys - even if you're not trying toGuys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secretsNo wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!
What Do Guys Like About You?


Classic Halter Dress
Classy and sexy, you know how to make a lasting impression without having an outrageous dress.
What's Your Prom Style?


Your True Sign Is Capricorn
RetroDrivenClassicReservedRealisticTrustworthyAppreciativeUltra Competitive
What's" Your True Sign?


;Loves, Christina



I just realised something. Love could just be so fragile.
I always thought that, they were the best couple that I've seen.
So loving, so sweet.. But, why did things turn out that way?
But, those were the past. Pick yourself up & stand on your feet again.
The weather will be sunny after the storm. Move on with your life. Be strong.

I don't know why I'am feeling this way. Mixed feelings inside me.
Shocked, downcasted, depressing..




Had a bad day today. Real bad. My unlucky Wednesday.
First, I was feeling so drowsy when I just woke up. & I bummed into the toilet door.
Second, reached school with a terrible stomachache.
Third, went to grab a milo drink at the vending machine. In the end, the milo came out diluted & I have to throw it away.
Fourth, misplaced the cupboard key. & I found the stupid key inside my fucking uniform.
Fifth, did pumpings for training which caused abrasions on my kneecap.
Sixth, the bloody taxi driver was so crappy & lame. WTH.
Isn't that bad enough?

Anyway, I've got no mood to go on blogging. Need a nap desperately. Gonna do my editing of camp plan later after I wake up. So, Bye people!

;Loves, Christina (:



Tuesday, November 21, 2006 | 6:56 PM
Haha. Currently chatting with CampUnity friends. WEEEEE!
Somehow quite happy la. I seldom chat with them in MSN, except for in forum. =DD
&I was thinking, if Charlie Platoon 1 could actually have a meeting except contact sessions.
'Cause I realised that other Divisions are having meeting. We can't lose to them, Charlie!

Ohhkkkayyy. Had camp meeting just now. So, the camp had been pushed forward to the 12th Dec to 14th Dec.
Which means, I can't go for CIP for alife which I've signed up before school ended.
& also, it clashes with the SANA course which I'am attending too. How How?
Everything's in a big mess.
Anyway, back to the topic on camp meeting. The camp committee sat down together & checked/ edited the plan together. {Er, I can say, somehow we did some work.}
Then, after the whole meeting, its only about 3.30++pm. To us, the evening's still early. Haha, so we window-shopped around CompassPoint. Aw, the same old shops. Went up to library & lend books with L.P.J. &we saw Alicia! (: Next, Popular 'cause L.P.J needed to buy some assesment books. {Her Mum forced her to, so she's got no choice.} Went down to Metro & we shopped like hell. We fitted on clothes & blah blah. From clothes to shoes, from shoes to bags, from bags to shades. Wow. Heels are hard to wear on. I don't like heels. =\ Looked at chocolates, made me go drooling. GRR.

I loved the video {Marry Me!}
Well, at first, I told my sister that she made a wrong decision in lending that video. But now, I have to admit that I'am wrong & my sister has got good taste afterall.
The video's actually kind of nice & sweet.

Today's the last episode for GOONG.
Even though I've watched the show before, but, its still so addictive ok? Nice show la.

Thats all! Bye Bye!
P.S, Zamira said my entries are somehow hard to understand. Is that so?

;Loves, Christina (:



Felt so empty, felt so down, felt so stressed.

Unable to see his MSN status as online.
Hes' gonna be offline for days.
Take care. I hope it doesn't rain or else, ...

;Loves, Christina



Monday, November 20, 2006 | 5:51 PM
Fucking bitch.
Everyone thinks she's a totally bitchy.
How suck-y. Had no idea why that blah blah blah likes her so badly.
Here's the stupid idiotic conversation I had with her. What the HELL.
Me: 'Can I have your Mum's hp no. for what else?'
Bitch: 'WAD! WHY SHOULD I?'
Me: 'Ok, fine.' {What else can I reply? I can't possibly scold her.}
Bitch: 'GREAT.'
That makes my blood go boiling over 100degree celsius.
So, I've decided. I'am going to make her suffer during trainings & camp.
Don't blame me if you cadets suffer. Blame it on her for testing my temper.
For your information, my temper's GREAT. Wanna try me? Come'on man. Fuck.


Woke up at 8.30am. Sister & Mummy nagged at me & to prevent somemore nagging, I dragged myself out of bed. Washed up & went straight to the computer desk. Signed in MSN, opened up email. '5 emails from Melvin Sim, SaBrInA Chee, SaBrInA Chee, SaBrInA Chee.' notice popped up. Moved my mouse terrifiedly, I knew, my scoldings are here. Haiz. Indeed, I opened Sabrina Ma'am's email. First sentence, scolding. Nevermind. Opened up Melvin Sir's email. Another dog-lashing scolding. AH. My whole mood went down, like sitting on the rollar coaster. Read thru' the plan. Lots of mistakes. Okay nevermind. Get dressed up & ran out of the house with sister.

Reached school for FDC. Derek came. WEEEE! But, we had to do commanding. Oh darn shit. The worst part of Footdrill. I failed my FD silver because of commanding. Nevermind. I still did my commanding. & it was like shit. Even my sister suan-ed me. She said,'Eh Pei Pei, your commanding very lousy.' RAWRRRRR.

Had camp meeting for awhile after training. Told the committee what to do about the plan.
Then went to CompassPoint for lunch. We had a change of favourite hangout finally. Ate McChicken Macdonals'. Haha. One funny thing la. I ordered student meal & the manager there gave me normal meal. Nice one la manager. =p

Rushed home 'cause I need to use the toliet {Was having a terrible horrible stomachache just now} & had to send the committee the plan & map. So, until now, I've not bathed. Oh man, I stinked 'cause of the sweaty teeshirt I wore during FDC training. >.<

Okay, gotta continue with my camp stuffs now. End of frustrations!

;Loves, Christina



Sunday, November 19, 2006 | 9:45 PM
Third time blogging for today.
Ah, I tell you, blogging is addictive.
Anyway, get down to personality tests! YAYAYAY!


Never Date a Virgo
Demanding, picky, and a total perfectionist - there's no way you want to live up to Virgo's standards.It's not that you couldn't please a Virgo... you would just hate yourself for doing it.
Instead try dating: Libra, Leo, Aquarius, or Aries

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?


Your Kissing Technique is: Perfect
Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.You have the confidence to make the first move.And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!

Are You a Good Kisser?


Your Depression Level: 48%
You seem to have mild depression.A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment.If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help.

Are You Depressed?


You Date Like a Woman
According to studies on dating, you date like a woman.You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling.
A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you.And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off.
You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky.You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?


You Are 88% Open
To say that you're comfortable in your own skin would be an understatement.You're very into yourself, and you love to tell everybody everything about you.While you may have the makings of the next Oprah, it's likely that people sometimes tune you out!

How Open Are You?


Your Seduction Style: Au Natural
You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?


You Are The Sun
You represent the best of life - vitality, success, and and truth.You tend to have a strong, centered, balanced personality.Inspiration and discovery are your fortes. You are very mentally strong.A talented mind, you tend to excel at math, philosophy, and music.
Your fortune:
As well as you have done in the past, the future is going to be filled with more success.A new creative project is coming your way. Feed it, and it will grow into something huge.Great riches, recognition, prosperity, or happiness is coming your way.And it's possible that a fantastic vacation, or a new baby, is coming sooner than you think.

What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.
How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 44% Happy
You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.
How Happy Are You?

You Should Be a Romance Novelist
You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart.You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer...And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories.As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.
What Type of Writer Should You Be?

You Are a Visual Learner
You tend to remember what you see, and you have a good eye for aesthetics.You excel at art, design, and computer programming.You would be an excellent film director - or the next Bill Gates!
What's" Your Learning Style?

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate
You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.
What's" Your Blogging Personality?

You're a Romantic Kisser
For you, kissing is all about feeling the romanceYou love to kiss under the stars or by the seaThe perfect kiss involves the perfect moodIt's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet
What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Are A Realistic Romantic
It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!
Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You Are A Loyal Sidekick
While you aren't the most visable one in your group...You're always up for a good time or conversationAnd you stick with your friends no matter whatYou may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!
What Kind of Friend Are You?

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"
You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you
Your flirting style: friendly and sweet
What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance
Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive
What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Your Love Style is Agape
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.
What's" Your Love Style?

Slow and Steady
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.
How Do People See You?
Thats all for today!
;Loves, Christina (:



Watched High School Musical just now.
Darn nice. I love the songs & dance steps. (:
WEEEEE. Zac Efron (Troy) looks CUTE! && Vanessa Anne Hudgens (Gabriella)'s PRETTY!

When there was me and you
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

;Loves, Christina



Ohhhhkaayy.
Daddy's out with sister to have brunch at Macdonals'.
I was too lazy to get out of bed, so I rejected the offer.
Now, I'am so freaking hungry, with stomach growling, & gastric juices inside my stomach.
AW, how awful.

Er, hang on. I've got a phone call from Mummy & an sms from JingFang.

YAY! Mummy's bringing me out to lend 'HighSchoolMusical' !!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Gotta go!

Byes!

;Loves, Christina (:



Saturday, November 18, 2006 | 11:57 PM
CONTACT SESSION ROCKS!!
FUN FUN FUN!

Met ZhiQi & Calvin at TM at around 12.15pm. Ate lunch & took train to Campsite.

Then, the fun started off with meeting XinYu, Kelly, ConHwa, JingKai, KaiTing, LuTing, & Priscilla at Kembangan MRT Station. Well, it was so much of an concidence. We din't arrange to meet each other. Erm, I think, HuaYi & YioChuKang arranged to. But, SengKang & the others never did. KaiTing then ran towards us & shouted 'ChoyPeiPei! WE SAME SECTION!'. Lol. Boarded bus 42 & head for campsite! Shouted from one end to the another end of the bus 'cause the whole bus was almost filled with NDP people. Registered with the Instructors & announced me & KaiTing as C13 (Which means, Charlie Division, Platoon 1, Section 3). Took a seat according to groupings at the canteen. I was making a hell lot of noise there. Chatting with the tortoise/bunny KaiTing, JingHan, NDP people & of course, my GROUP MEMBERS!
Let me try naming them out. Amirah from Admiralty Sec. Hui Yun from Evergreen Sec. June from Unity Sec. Ashikin from Siglap Sec. Syazwani from Northbrooks Sec, Eugene from St Gabriel's Sec, Sarah from Coral Sec & Wei Xuan from Greendale {He did not turn up though}.
Then, we were introduced to the Instructors & briefed about the contact sessions by the Instructors. Next, we were dismissed to our divisions to have interaction & prepare for the camp presentation. Charlie was located at the MPH. Oh no! I was so scared la. 'cause Alfian Sir said stories about the MPH.
Platoon 1 was kind of quiet at first. Not too enthu, I can say. Maybe because of the presence of Alfian Sir and QingXiang Sir, & thats why the members dont dare to voice out opinions. Everything's alright for me 'cause I somehow know Alfian Sir and QingXiang Sir before the contact session. So, we requested for them to excuse themselves for awhile. & they did. However, they looked quite disappointed. In the end, we managed to come up with the presentation. The whole idea was quite innovative, combining KaiTing & Farhan's idea together. SHHH, I'am not going to say anything else about the presentation. In case, there are spies inside my blog. Haha. Shall keep you guys in suspense. Halfway thru' the discussion, Alpha Division came up to the MPH & shouted their cheer. We were like, 'NO! WE CANNOT LOSE TO THEM!'. So, we shouted back,'Go away! Go away! Go away!'. Then, we sped things up & started brain-storming for our division cheer. We made use of the Fly Kite cheer & We'll Rock You cheer. This time, Daniel Sir suggested using our butts to form 'Charlie' in front of the other divisions down at the parade square. Girls were darn shy about it at first. But, our teamspirit overcame everything. We gave each other encouragement & we did it! Everyone's butt looked S-E-X-Y! =p Got back to seat at the canteen with Alpha & Bravo. Got briefed on some administrative stuffs & then off to games! We played the Squirrel & Tree game. FUNNY! REAL FUNNY. The NDP people {I mean, some only} stood so close to each other. So, when they say, 'Fire!', the trees switched places among ourselves only. When they say, 'Hunter!', the squirrels switched places among ourselves as well. As for 'Earthquake!', we grab each other & got into place. Haha, QiuYu Sir & Wilson Sir kept trying to make us separated. Sorry lo Sirs, NDP will never be separated no matter what. ;D Laughed heartily during the game. Darn funny. Thinking of the game now, still makes me go rolling on the floor, laughing. Haha. Game ended & soon it's time to go home. We ended the whole contact session with our cheers. (: Then, helped Instructors to carry the chairs back to the rooms & off we went!
Walked all the way to Bedok Interchange as we used the back gate of the campsite. Had so much fun suan-ing JingKai. He's my best suan-ing partner la. LongJohnSliver's for dinner. Ages I since last ate LJS with my NDP friends. About 101days. LOL.
Then, home sweet home, chatting in Unity Forum. Funny la.

I can't wait for the camp!
I can't wait for the next contact session even thou it's just 2weeks away.
CAMP UNITY! OHLALA~ 'U' n 'I', The Youth of Red Cross
See it? The theme of CampUnity.

Charlie Division, Platoon 1, Section 3!
WEEEEEEEEEE!

Thats all! Kind of a long post.

;Loves, Christina



Currently, I'am on the empty/frustrated/bored mood.
Empty 'cause it's early in the wee hours, or let me put it in this way. Late in the night.
Frustrated 'cause the Camp Commander is taking a bloody long time to edit the plan & send it back to me. He's on the editing part for like 1hr30min. I've never seen someone edit so slow or maybe, he's just being cautious. Moreover, you know, I'am someone who lacks patience. So, I was like, hitting my desk & Daddy's staring hard at me while watching at telly. & he's getting impatient at me for using computer till so late & he kept sighing at me.
Bored 'cause I'am actually wasting my beauty sleep here on the net, doing nothing.

YAY! Finally! The plan's sent over to me.
File RECEIVED!

;Loves, Christina



Friday, November 17, 2006 | 11:43 PM
Can I not be Assistant Camp Commander?
Too stressed. I can even dream of camp proposal in my sleep.
I'am so going to drop dead.
So much things not yet to be done.
Lesson plan for games, opening hours of clincs, F&B charts, campfire stuffs, meals & blah blah.
KILL ME. STAB ME RIGHT INTO MY HEART.
SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM MY AGONY.

Went back to school for the trying out of watergames & settling some camp stuffs.
OUCH. Watergames were horrid. The guys threw waterbombs at the girls.
How un-manly they are! Making girls scream & whine are their forte. >.<

Dine with pals at usual hangout place---KFC again.
We seem never tired of the food there. We LOVE the food there. Esp, Gayatri.
'Cause the food there is CHEAP. Just $2.95 & you can get a shrooms burger meal. Isn't that great? Plus, Gayatri always STEAL my cheesefries. Hahaha.
& we never fail to fill the whole place with our hysterical laughters & lighten up the atmosphere there. Grins.

Dead tired at that point of time. So, I dragged myself to the DIY HomeFix store.
& watched them choose the stuffs they needed for OA.
Head for home. Sat on the bus. Having terrible headache.

Then, Home Sweet Home.
& here I am, rushing camp proposal.

;Loves, Christina



WEEEEE!
TOMORROW'S CAMPUNITY CONTACT SESSION!!
I'AM IN THE SAME SECTION AS KAITING!
{Charlie Platoon 1, Section 3}
YAYAYAYAYAY!

How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to give more than take in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.
How Are You In Love?

You Are 75% Perfectionist
You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!
Are You a Perfectionist?

You Are 68% Grown Up, 32% Kid
Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.
How Emotionally Mature Are You?

You Are Cookie Monster
Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.
You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.
You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking
How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

You're Totally Sarcastic
You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

You Are A Walnut Tree
You are strange and full of contrasts... the oddball of your group.You are unrelenting and you have unlimited ambition.Not always liked but always admired, you are more infamous than famous.You are aggressive and spontaneous, and your reactions are often unexpected.A jealous and passionate person, you are difficult in romantic relationships.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating
You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together.You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change.
You should major in:
StatisticsSpeechConflict studiesCommunicationFinanceMedicine

You Are Somewhat Honest
You do tend to tell the truth a lotBut you also stretch the truth on occasionYou figure a little lie isn't a big dealAs long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

You Are 96% Passionate, 4% Compassionate
You are a truly passionate person, and for you, love is a drug.When you're in love, you lose all grip on reality. And it's a wild ride.Although falling in love is vivid experience for you, it's sometimes *too* intense.

Your Birth Month is November
Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.
Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love
Your gemstone: Citrine
Your flower: Chrysanthemum
Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow
You Are 45% Left Brained, 55% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Just bored. Continue when I'am back from meeting then.
;Loves, Christina



Thursday, November 16, 2006 | 10:22 PM
MUSCLE-ACHES ALL OVER.
TOO MUCH LACTIC ACID!

Woke up at around 8.30am. Flip, turned & tossed around on my bed for like 1 hour.
'Cause, I couldn't move my limbs. Too stiff & too much of pain.
Then, sister suddenly opened her eyes & woke up. The first word she said was,' OUCH!'.
& she screamed. I said, 'DIE LA. I cannot get out of bed. My thighs darn pain. Back & shoulders ache. Having headache. Blueblacks on both kneecaps.'
Yeah, the aches were that bad. Image doing 90++ pushups per day. >.<

Guess how I managed to get out of bed? I rolled & stumbled down. Then slammed straight onto the cold floor.
How dumb. But, that's the only way. Then, I sat up on my rolling chair & moved myself to the toilet. =.=
I can't even be bothered to change out of my pyjames 'cause I don't want to raise my arms up.
Fine. Since my mum insists that I MUST pack my bed every morning for the whole holiday, I did my bed.
Raised my arms slowly & blah blah. Then, slammed down at the couch again.
Then, snatched computer from sister & edited camp plan.

Around 11plus, get changed & head for school.
Did everything in slow motion. Took 45minutes to take a bath.
Even the uncle have to press the lift for me. {Sorry Uncle!}
Reached school & tried out the games for camp.
At least, we managed to somehow alter the games & made it fun. (:
However, some bloody bitch spoilt Gayatri & my mood. Bunch of idiots.
Then, edited the camp proposal & sequence of events.
The timing are not right, events kept changing & lots more.
Had a change of place & went to our favourite hangout place ---KFC!
Discussed alot of things there. & we managed to come to a decision.
We added another new game inside 'cause of the extra timeslot we had.
Rushed home 'cause Mummy's working overtime tonight. Thus, I need to buy dinner home for my dumb sister.

Sat on the bus, thought of many stuffs again.
The bus journey had always been my thinking living space.
It makes me reflects on many many things which I had done on the day itself. Be it right or wrong.
If I've done right, I will analyze on how I can improve it.
If I've done wrong, I will atone & see where I go wrong.

Reached home. Did housework despite my aches.
Aiya, what to do? Mummy's not home. I'am the eldest at home then.
So, no choice. No way out.
I'am not willing to do so, been forced to.

Watched telly. {PROJECT SUPERSTAR!}
WOOOOOO. WEEEEEE.
I know a guy from there. & he's inside the top 24!
GRINS. I'am so going to support him 'cause he's Jonathan's friend!
GOGOGOGOGO!
HAH.

Thats all. Kind of a long post la. Fly off to munch on my JELLIES!

;Loves, Christina ! (:



Wednesday, November 15, 2006 | 10:02 PM
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. HORRIBLE NEWS!!!
DARN SHIT.
I'am announced the Assistant Camp Commander for RC Annual Camp/training camp.
AHHH. RAWRR. GRRRR.
I don't want la. Even though it might be a good opportunity.
However, the stress/pressure that we'll be facing. Haiz.
My holidays are ruined just like this. By a pathetic stupid little news.
Never mind. Since I'am a perfectionist, I will try my best & expect the best out of the camp proposal.
{HAIZ. Face frowning.}

Training today. Somehow tough.
Did lots & tons of PT & PUSHUPS. Cadets owed the DH too much. As much as two hundred plus plus.
Which means, NCOs have to do four hundred plus plus.
&& now, my muscles, limbs, forearms are aching like hell. BOOHOOO.
Let's image how the talentine people going to endure tomorrow's practice. Hahah.

Then, AOP. Many many mistakes in the last camp proposal that ZhiQi did.
>.<

Muscles aching now. Gotta watch tv & off to sleep.
Need to rest & let the lactic acid in my muscle change back to glucose.

;Loves, Christina (:



Tuesday, November 14, 2006 | 9:24 PM
MY SISTER TOLD HER FRIEND THAT SHE MADE JELLIES,
HOW DUMB!
IT MADE ME LAUGH LIKE HELL. HAHAHAHAHAHA....


&&&& WHY IS BLOGSKINS.COM KEEP HAVING DATABASE ISSUES?!
I JUST WANT TO CHANGE MY SKIN!
CAN'T I HAVE MY PATHETIC FAVOURITE PASTIME !?!$#%*



YAY YAY YAY!

So happy/satisfied/pleased/glad with myself. HAH!
'Cause, I wore an apron {Well, it's the school's green apron which is used for D&T & Home Econs} & cooked/hand-made jellies! WEEEEEEEEE.
While cooking, a blissful feeling touched my heart. I don't know why.
His image kept appearing inside my mind.
I wanted so badly to give him the jellies I've made. But, I don't have the courage even though Mummy encouraged me.
So, I'am giving to friends tomorrow!
"Hey! You guys are so lucky to eat my jellies okay? My first time making them. (:"

Anyway, I watched a TV show just now at 8.30pm. Like wow la!
The girl knew the guy for 10years & amazingly, she was secretly in love with him for 5years.
She's my idol, man! 5years. How long! I've already find it hard to endure the 2nd year.
How did she ever managed to hold all her feelings inside for 5 entire years!
However, what a sad ending. The guy rejected her.
To him, it's better to stay as friends.
Oh well.
This awakened the half-asleep soul inside me.
I thought to myself, "I think he'll tell me that also if I confessed."
I asked myself,"Do I have the courage to do that infront of the TV crew & whole of Singapore?"
& I sighed at the end of the show. "Haiz..."

Tomorrow's training. RAWR. I dislike training. It's horrible terrible.
Same goes for AOP tomorrow. There'll be lots & tons of scoldings to bear.
Gotta ask Gayatri prepare all the tissues inside RC room before AOP starts, before MrMelvinSim screams at us.

;Loves, Christina



Tired. Brain cells all used up on camp stuffs.
Supposedly, I should be at the camp meeting now.
However, due to some personal matters {HEH!}, Assistant Camp Commander excused me.
& here I am, Home Sweet Home.
But, definitely, I need to finish all the FA stuffs before XianLi ends her SPA, which is around 3.30pm.
Yeah, no worries, I've finished them. Or else, I wouldn't be blogging.

Bored. Talking about boredom, homework popped into my mind.
Hmm, I NEED to do my homework urgently, before the month of December starts.
'Cause, I will be so busy with camps. CAMPS CAMPS CAMPS!
First camp which I will be going, CO Camp. I mean, as a stupid first-aider.
Second camp, Camp Unity! YAY YAY YAY!
Third camp, SKRCY Annual Camp. Haiz.

默默在你的身後守候的我
多想看你不經意的笑容
或許我的心你不懂
我會努力讓你感動

在你眼中有多麼笨拙的我
決不放棄追逐你的執著
只要你能再多些回應我
一個笑或點頭全接受

能不能再靠近一點點
大聲說出你所有感覺
別再緊緊關在只有自己的世界
溫暖太陽為你迎接

能不能再靠近一點點
能不能再勇敢一點點
就算讓我知道我永遠只是單戀
我也會藏著感謝
笑著和你說再見

Oh yeah. I just remembered. Tomorrow's Chemistry lesson. Darn it. It must be SPA tomorrow.
So dead. Titration! Titration! Titration!
;Loves, Christina



Monday, November 13, 2006 | 9:51 AM
I seriously hate that bad-manned/rude/barbaric/vulgar girl.
She sucks big time, I tell you. Such a big bitch in the dick. {LOL!}
She have no idea how many people hates her to the core & still pretending as though she's popular.
AHHH, can't stand her fucking attitude.
Just disappear from my sight.




Okay, {Breathe in, Breathe out. Calm down!}
Yay! No school/lessons today. Finally.
However, stupid FDC & Committee Meeting ruined my day. >.<
Still have to go back to school later at 1.30pm. WTH.

Yesterday, Annual Camp AOP.
How dumb. Everything's so last minute. Everyone was so pissed there.
Lots of things to be done again. I dreaded AOP.
Then, I left at 1.35pm 'cause Mummy wants me home by 2pm.
& I don't know why.

Oh yeah, can you actually believe that, I was watching a comedy show & I just cried like that?
I mean, not crying because of laughter. Cried because it hurts deep down here. {Points to the heart}
Haiz, I don't know how I did that.

;Loves, Christina



Saturday, November 11, 2006 | 10:25 PM
听见
你不开心的脸,仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
距离就算在靠近眼前,我们一样没交点
没有你的世界,就像寒冬没有春天依偎
少了你不在身边,我的四季只剩下冬天
悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演,静下来的世界
有我的思念,也有你的空虚无边

你有没有听见,寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
他住进我们之间,消耗着我和你的永远
你有没有听见,思念的呼唤传遍每条街
就算你走的再远,累了回头我就在你的身边

Maybe, I should had given up on him long ago.
Joking around with him when he's surrounded with a bunch of girls.
Sitting at the dining table, listening to Mum & sister chatting about him & I still faked a smile.
How dumb. Why did I forced myself to do that?
Really tired of it. One day, my strength & force will run out.
I find myself getting lost so often.
I can't seem to rec0gnise myself anymore.
Everything I do, everything I think, everything I say,
has got something to do with him.
Do I have to evolve my life around him?
Many said, 'How good, you've got good taste for choosing him.'
& I questioned myself, 'Oh? Good taste for choosing someone to hurt myself. Yeah, nice choice you have, girl.'

Or maybe, I should had told him about my feelings & confessed.
Things will be different if I did that.
He will avoid me & treat me like a pest.
& by then, I have no more reasons to go near him & talk to him as normal.
At least, if I never tell him, we'll still be friends.
& I can still get to know every single detail about him.
However, the feeling of burying all the desires & yearnings deep down inside my heart is undescrible.
Just like, a knife stabbing straight into my heart.

Always crying alone in the night.
Scribbling his name around in my small little diary.
Thinking about him every moment.
Pasted his picture on one of my particular file.

One-sided love.
Just a stupid black world which I lived in.
I've waited for 2 years.
2 years isn't a short time, nor a long time.
I have no idea what kept me holding on to this dumb thing.
I did so many stupid idiotic things because of him.
I dunno why I did that. He's not even worth it.

Let the rain wash away my tears.
Let the wind blow away my yearns.
God, let me forget him.

;Loves, Christina



Friday, November 10, 2006 | 10:18 AM
默默在你的身後守候的我
多想看你不經意的笑容
或許我的心你不懂
我會努力讓你感動

就算讓我知道我永遠只是單戀
我也會藏著感謝
笑著和你說再見




Sorry for not blogging for four days ( I think so ).
Not in a mood to blog. Or let me put it in this way, I don't have the time.
Reached home everynight at around 7plus. >.<
At that time, Dad already using the computer.
So, I don't have a valid reason to use the computer. Plus, I was busy watching my VCDs !!

Anyway, I don't want to blog about yesterday's Civil Defence Course.
I went there in a happy/excited mood but yet came home with a grumpy/disappointed/angry mood.
It was already kind enough of me letting the cadets play nonsenically during the class.
However, they went overboard & started the ever-chilidish game --- hitting each other.
Ended up, we have to look for someone who went missing in action because of this stupid game.
Never mind. Everything's over now. The coast's clear.

Haiz, I hate holidays. Holidays are like, hellidays.
Still having tests, lessons, homework &...
Not much difference whether we having holidays or schooldays.

Oh yes, currently watching {It started with a kiss}.
Darn nice. The content's about a girl falling in love with a guy& the guy doesn't likes her.
Somemore, the girl's school results aren't that good. While, the guy's always 1st in the whole level.
So, it's they are not compatible. Blah Blah.
'Hey, why am I introducing videos in my blog? Hahah.'

Lessons later at 11.30am, then off to buy stuffs for the Project Red Cross Love at Plaza Singapura.
Of course, after that, going to HQ & pass them the stuffs that we've bought.

Alright. That's the end for today. (:

;Loves, Christina



Monday, November 06, 2006 | 6:16 PM
Bored.
Sister's not home yet. AHHHHHHHH.
Her class gathering. How dumb. I mean, they're only Sec1, there's still Sec2 to go. Which means that, they will still be in a same class for another year. Why is there a need for class gathering? Waste of time && of course, MONEY!!
HMM, I was thinking, how come there isn't any class gathering for our class? In my opinion, we seriously need to have a breather before we proceed to Sec4. That's why, we need a class gathering to let our hair down.

RAWR. I just got to know that NeoLiZhu came to my house just now!!!
OHNO. I never pack my bed. I threw my sneakers around. {$$%&%(&*)#!^*}
KILL ME! KILL ME! How embarrasing can that be?!
Anyway, I bet she must be puking now after the pirate ship ride.
HAHAHAHA, THANKYOU SISTER!
You did me proud by torturing her! YAY YAY YAY!
So evil. Can't be blamed. She's evil at first, I'am just.. You know, an eye for an eye.
LAUGHINGOUTLOUD!

Okay, end of post. Yvonne's home. >.<

;Loves, Christina



Two people, together
had always been my dream.
Until you came along,
& I thanked God for letting me dream.

The joy of being with you,
The despair of being apart.
The elation that suffuses my being,
The pain that crushes my heart.

The heat that flows through my veins,
The cold that freezes my bones.
The oneness that makes me complete,
The emptiness of being alone.
The peace of lying in your arms,
The anxiety of being unheld.
The flow of my soul into yours,
The hurt of being unfulfilled.
The pride of calling you mine,
The fear of letting you down.
The glow of seeing you smile,
The sadness of seeing you frown.
The pleasure I get from your body,
The numbness of nothing to feel.
The ecstasy I love you to give you,
The agony that makes me reel.

Adapted from http://www.lovelandia.com/
Yesterday

Went out for Talentine practice at Orchard (Specialist Shopping Centre). I mean, I went there to give them the moral support. >.<
& since, I'am the manager, I NEED to be there. So important in there. LOL.
Walked around & searched for lunch. From Cathy Cineleisure to Takashimaya.
Then, went over to National Library 'cause of MrMelvinSim who wanted to book-search for his DANCE & DENTAL books. Flipped & looked at books. Oh well, I'am still surrounded by books even after exams. Ballet seemed disguisting to me. Look at the way they pointed their toes. YUCKS. But I have to admit that, Ballet's graceful. &&, we had fun in the library. Amazing huh? We played in the lift. Haha. Gayatri's a scardey-cat. Bleahs. (:
Next location, Hougang. 'Cause I wanted so badly to cut my hair. LOL. Okay la, I went there because my friends PRAISED that salon or whatever you call it. So, yeah, I'am still quite satisfied with the new haircut. Never regret making a long trip there.
Anyway, during the train trip back to Hougang, we were GOSSIPING! Aiyah, with Gayatri around, there WILL be gossips. So, we nicknamed 'AHEM' 'lalehlo'. HAHA.
Ate dinner at Hougang Mall. Window-shopping awhile & home sweet home!

Today

Had the publicizing of our school at Seng Kang Primary today morning. Okay, everything's so last minute. Because, of 'AHEM'. I dint know I have to bring the cupboard key & all the stuffs are placed inside the cupboard. Partly's my fault also. The worst thing is, she have not bought the sweets for the kids yet. Like wth! Then, at that time, we've already changed our uniforms. So, we're not allowed to go out of school. She then said, 'Never mind, ask MrYap buy.' Deep down, I was thinking, why everything rely on MrYap, why can't you just ask someone outside to buy? =.= So, I asked her to ask Amirah to buy. Settled everything that is needed to be settled. & off to SKPS in MrYap's car. Yeah, as usual, it's like CCA carnival. Except that, it's for the small kids instead of big kids.
At 10.45, we took MrsSuresh's car back to school. Changed & get ready for class.
It's maths lesson today. MrAdrianTan taught us. FUN FUN FUN. We're like, so high. The NiNi family. LOL. Darn funny la. For example, Koh(Cold)NiNI, Wong(Warm)NiNi, Chow(Smelly)NiNi, Wu(No)NiNi. Hahahahaah.


Why are so many good teachers leaving our school? For example, MrNg, MrYap, Zhang LaoShi... Frankly speaking, I don't like our school also. Haiz, but, no choice. Have to finish my last year there. So, just endure.

Okay, currently listening to LingYan's blog song. NiceNice. (:
I need a nap!

;Loves, Christina



Saturday, November 04, 2006 | 7:05 PM
I hate myself. RAHHHHHHH.
I've not started (touched) any of my holiday homework yet! DARN IT.
I would rather sit infront of the television for 9 straight hours; from 9am to 7pm.
My eyes are like, BURNING. I hope, my degree will not worsen.

Hopeless case. My dad. >.<
He smokes almost15 cigarrette everyday.
Like WTF? Government kept showing the PSI in the television, which means, Please Stay Indoors. But, I can't even get fresh air at home. I bet, the air outside will be far better than home's. I need oxygen tank someday.
Let's see how's my dad's gonna die. He will just be a burden to the society, adding onto the haze.

I really can't stand him. I dislike staying at home.
Should had gone out with friendds & come home late.
ARGHHHHHHHH.

;Loves, Christina
I'll be brave & overcome all obstancles.



Friday, November 03, 2006 | 9:25 PM
Aiyoh, JiaYi getting so moody nowadays.
Cheer up la. No use getting so upset.
It only harms your body. (:

Just finished watching Devil Beside You.
Nice ending. But, I was quite shocked when the male actor went to Italy, leaving the girl behind.
I cried & tear-ed during the last episode. How sad. =X

Anyway, I was considering whether I should watch 'DeathNote' again with girls.
Haiz, I'am somehow short of money. RAWR. Spending too much this whole week. So BROKE!
DeathNote again. Counting tomorrow, it will be the 3rd time watching. >.<
Wanted so badly to watch the Conventor.

;Loves, Christina (:



And under all the make-believe,
My smile is all I hide.
And all the truth I keep from you,
Is bottled inside.





BACK FROM SCHOOL.

OhMy. Biology was a total bore la. I almost fell asleep during the lesson.
Can't be helped. MrsQuek is like talking monotone. =X
& plus, we're doing on the Excretion chapter. Rawr. It always made me have the urge to go to toliet 'cause MrsQuek's talking about the composition of Urine.
Urine consists of urea, nitrogenous waste, excess water & sodium chloride. Blah blah.

Darn stupid. The dentist at the mobile dental clinic did something to my teeth.
She cleaned it. Wah, then my whole mouth was full of blood. >.<
I think by tonight, my gums will be red & swollen 'cause plus, I went for my dental appointment at NDC two days ago.

Okay fine. Sister want use computer & play so-bo-liao maple. LOL.

Anyway, I think theres another NDP gathering cum BBQ!
YAY YAY YAY!

;Loves, Christina (:



SCHOOL LATER AGAIN. >.<

Haiz, I was wondering, how come I need to go back to school for dental checkup?
Waste of time. As if the dentists there can clean my teeth with the braces on.

Biology later again. Learning about Kidneys. =.=

;Loves, Christina
i loved everything about you.
even your weakness.
your small little gestures just attracts me.
your 'hi' & 'bye' just makes me go crazy.



Thursday, November 02, 2006 | 9:14 PM
Today's sharing of IPW products at Woodlands Regional Library was kind of interesting & enjoyable. (:
Never ever though that an Educational 'FIELD' trip could be so much of fun. Haha.
We're told to present the IPW products at our booth.
I was like, HUH? Our class only did the webpage, not the flash, video & oral history.
Those were done by other classes. How can we explain it to other teachers when it's not done by us? =X
Oh yes, not forgetting, MrShaunPoh was acting cute thru' out the whole thing. >.<
& he THREATENS Kevin to delete his photo in the camera.
Also, he said we are allowed to take out our ties,
in the end, we got somehow reprimanded by Mdm Sharifah. LOL.

Aiyah, gotta fly off to watch videos now. To know more, wait for tomorrow's entry then! Rejoice!

;Loves, Christina



I can't resist the temptation to blog.
So, here I am blogging before I leave for school.

Haiz. Why do we have to wear tie for the sharing of IPW thing at Woodlands Regional Library?
BOOHOOO. I don't want.

;Loves, Christina
一直等待是一种煎熬。



Wednesday, November 01, 2006 | 9:53 PM
Just cut & ate my TEA-ROSE birthday cake. LOL.
My throat's so pain la. I think because I ate too much cake this week. =X
Really need to rest my voice or else, it will turn hoarse.

Heard the birthday song that was sang by sister once again.
Made me realise that I've grown older & I need to be much more mature than before.

& I was smiling sweetly since dinnertime. 'Cause of something which really makes me smile from deep inside. (: Sister & Mummy's teasing me about it. Haha. Okay la, whatever.

Boredom.

;Loves, Christina



I'am back from my dental appointment. (:
Okay, I somehow heed Melanie's suggestion & put red for my braces.
Heh. 'Cause Christmas's coming. WEEEEEEEEEE.

Anyway, my whole mood was picked up by sister's present.
WOW. I loveddddd it so much cans? She made me a handphone strap with my name on it.
NICEE. However, she can be so dumb at times la.
She put the capricorn sheepie on it as well. >.<>
It's because the sheep looks nice so she decided to put it on.
& of course, Tracy mei's present.
She posted some Cetus family's photos in her blog.
Hmm, Cetus family are somehow broken but, it remained as one inside my heart.
No matter what happens, Cetus are always the best. (:
Not forgetting, the birthday cake that Mummy bought for me.
Yeah, she bought it at BreadTalk. Yummy!
The flavour's tea rose. Drools.

Tomorrow's going for the IPW sharing at Woodlands Regional Library.
Oh darn it. Have to wear tie for tomorrow. =.=
My sister said, 'Jie, you should be honoured la. 'Cause its the first time in your 3 years that you wore a tie.'
I was like, FINE. Haha.

Oh yes, I re-editted the photos & enlarges it by using photobucket.
So, enjoy seeing them! =D

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

;Loves, Christina



Oh shucks.
Soon, I will be going out for my darn dental appointment at the National Dental Clinic.
How dumb. I fixed my appointment on my birthday.
I was wondering, how am I going to eat my birthday cake & the big feast that Mummy's going to prepare tonight? >.<

Anyway, happy birthday to me, QiKang (Primary school friend & classmates for this year) & JunAn (My tution friend).
Thanks to Jia Yi & Melanie who gave me birthday bashs.
Thanks to Pei Jie, Priscilla & Yenting who gave me 1 hit each.
Thanks to XianLi for her purse & necklace.
Thanks to Munirah for her Ferro Rocher chocolates. {Yummy!}
Thanks to everyone who wished me.
& of course, Thanks to dearest sister who wrote me that short paragraph in her blog.
Well, to me, it's not kind of touching la.
But, definitely, I appreciate it. 'Cause its the sincerity that counts. (:

Even though, my birthday wish doesn't come true, I still have friends around me.
It's never lonely with friends around.
But, I don't know why my heart felt so empty.

I know, I shouldn't cry on my birthday.
Mummy told me, it isn't a good sign.
I just couldn't help it & couldn't hold back my tears.

Okay, gotta fly off!

;Loves, Christina





CHRISTINA

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