默默在你的身後守候的我
多想看你不經意的笑容
或許我的心你不懂
我會努力讓你感動
在你眼中有多麼笨拙的我
決不放棄追逐你的執著
只要你能再多些回應我
一個笑或點頭全接受
能不能再靠近一點點
大聲說出你所有感覺
別再緊緊關在只有自己的世界
溫暖太陽為你迎接
能不能再靠近一點點
能不能再勇敢一點點
就算讓我知道我永遠只是單戀
我也會藏著感謝
笑著和你說再見

Guess what?!



I've been looking at Wu Zun's picture since today morning. Even during lessons. 'Cause, I put his picture inside my organiser. ;D Haha. & Munirah says, AngRen's hotter and cuter than Wu Zun. NAHHHHH. I believe Wu Zun's much more handsome, hotter, & CUTER. "Munirah dearie, Nanapoopoo!"

Valentine's Day arriving. Oh well. This year, I've got to get a present. Yeah, Munirah dearie's. Hers, will be extra special. 'Cause, shes my LESBO! Heh. I think I'll be buying girl-friends & boy-friends chocolates too. See, how good I am. Well, I just trying to keep myself occupied.

Lessons are boring. Albert Teoh started new chapter for Emaths-- Vectors. Abit confused. I'am so not used to his teachings. Pei Jie was forced to sing a song with Saddam since she answered the question wrongly. & Plus, she copied my answer. =X Biology, started new chapter too--- Eye. How cool! I think my tear glands are super active. Is there any way to make it not-so-active? Had a combined History lesson with 4E2. Khalida was like insulting the student counciliors & our class. Moreover, her jokes aren't funny. Seriously, I cant figure out why 4E2 thinks that her jokes are funny. Ah nevermind. Social Studies test. My mind went blank for like 10 minutes. WTH. I hope during Os, my mind don't go blank. Or else, I'll be roasted dead. Imagine a roasted rabbit on your plate. Ok WHATEVER. Assembly was total bore. I slept thru'out the whole period even when Mr Singh (D&T teacher) was sitting near us. I don't give it a damn. My eye lids are heavy. & my stomach's aching. I found it so hard to open my eyes wide. So, I was napping away when Yenting suddenly banged my head using her back. Ouch! It's painful ok? Lol. Then, went back to lalaland again because of the monotone-ness in Mr Toh's voice. I don't know why nowadays I'am feeling as though teachers' voice are all monotone. Mrs Quek, Albert Teoh, Cheryl Ong. Well, except Selvarasoo & Emily Cheng. How I wish I could fall asleep in their lessons. Then, I must be pro enough. Haha.

Okay, gotta watch telly until 8 then off for homeworking. ;D
There's Essay test, Chinese spelling & Emaths CFC & Locus test tmr. Die die.

;Loves, Christina
Affection for Wu Zun!

I LOVE WU ZUN FROM FAHRENHEIT!
I LOVE WU ZUN FROM FAHRENHEIT!!
I LOVE WU ZUN FROM FAHRENHEIT!!!
I LOVE WU ZUN FROM FAHRENHEIT!!!!

& I'VE FOUND HIS OWN BLOG!
YEAH, HIS OWN PERSONAL BLOG!!
THOSE ENTRIES THAT HE'D BLOGGED IN!!!


OKAY. I'am crazy over him. (Priscilla might be saying, "SO WHAT, BIG DEAL?" Haha. )He's sooo beautiful as in, hot, cute, gorgeous, & more incredibly nice vocabulary words (which I'am lazy to list even though Emily Cheng says we've got to MEMORISE them & apply them to our real lives.)

Alright. Not gotta let my feelings ride over me. Gotta keep calm! LOL.

Anyway, lessons as usual. What do you expect from an ordinary lousy school like SengKang? Oh, maybe the scoldings you receieved from different teachers. See how the way they scolded/nagged/reprimanded us. How amazingly. I was wondering, why can the teachers scolded us in a refined manner? But, the students from our school are all scolding vulgarities when they got freaking pissed off? Anger management? That includes me as well. I can scold 'Fuck' up to 10 times per day. I'am trying to cut down. Especially when it's training or Melvin will threaten me with the 100pushups that I need to do each time I say the word 'Fuck'. Aiyah, 100 pushups at one shot. Chicken feet. HAHA. Nah, I was joking. I just need 2 breaks in between. ;D

FDC training was total crap. I was even given an excuse letter away from SSPs and classes from Mrs Suresh for the next four days. How cool. But, seriously, I need to juggle my studies & trainings/RC. I'am exhausted. Haiz. But, I'am not going to give up. Perservance & hard work are all I need for my 7points for Os. ;) It's just another 9 months or so to go!
Oh yes, back to FDC training. Got to know that Yeeshan's our new VI!! Yay heh. But, Derek & Sabrina's going over to Punggol!!! SHOCKING NEWS. NOOOOO! I don't want to see them only in HQ events which I will be seldom joining after this last FDC. I want the crappiest Derek Sir back in SKRCY, the one whom I always crap with to suan Gayatri, the one whom taught me Emaths, Amaths, Chem, Physics & blah blah. LOL. & Sabrina, who has been so lenient with us (much lenient than Melvin. Oh, is that called badmouthing Melvin?) for the camp plan & many more. I know, many cadets hate her to the core, but when you're close to her (as in, when you become an NCO), you'll realise how good she is. Hey Sab & Derek (If you're reading this, which I know, Derek is. HAAH.), try to appeal & come back to SKRCY. But, even if you guys go over to Punggol, you've got to miss me --- your crappiest, thick-skinned cadet, CHRISTINA CHOY. LOL.

FDC is just this coming Sat. &we're not well-prepared yet. I mean, REALLY NOT WELL-PREPARED. At least, I joined this competition, I did try my best, I dint let myself down & for letting myself regret not joining my favourite competition. So, squad! WE've got to do all we can. I'am gonna rush down after lessons without meals, skip lessons if I can to go for trainings. We need to work together & create our own destiny. Oh crap. I said it as if it will affect our lives. Hmm, maybe it will. If we din't win, we might be living in the shadow whcih states, 'SKRCY sure to lose' & thus, in the future, we might not be even joining the most prestigious competition-- FDC because, we're afraid to be mocked at, laughed at, && ashamed. But, if we win, our confidence will definitely be boosted. & the current squad (not including Sec4s) will be joining FDC again next year. & the current juniors will work hard to win the compeititon as well. How glad.
I think, we shouldn't be thinking much about the aftermath, like what are we going to do if we lose? It's so ashamed if we lose. Guys, be optimistic. Think it positively. You've gained alot during this process. Your FD improved by leaps and bounds. Enjoy the process not the ending. It's the process that makes you win the competition. We're winners already in the first place. Most importantly, don't let yourself down. Dont let it be the greatest regret in your 4 years of RC. ;D SEE, thats the advice from someone's whos stepping down. OH yay! I'am STEPPING DOWN sooooonn.

Gotten my SS facts about Housing up there (points to head). Same goes for CFC & Locus. (:
All I need to do now is to rush my Chem homework in FYS. 6 pages. Oh faints. Oh shucks.

;Loves, Christina

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

Friday, had training & SKY Idol at the same time after school. But, before that, we wanted to get Amaths online test done but, the bloody lousy computer lab doesnt have the software installed. WTH. See, I told you, the school's lousy with those lacking facilities. Alright, helped LPJ finish off her 'new year resolution for RC' and we crapped alot in the document (as usual la. just like the CO camp report. ;D). & then, rushed off to see the four guys who participated in SKY Idol (Januver, Ruey Yi, Asyraf, and LingYan). They din't perform up to standard. I meant, they sang better during practices and rehearsals. But nevermind. Afterall, they got into the next round. Do better the next round then. Don't give up. There's a long way ahead. (: Next, went for trainign at around 5pm to see my darlings. Ohmygosh, Shijie's just so cute. Haha, sorry, I ain't bias ok? Then, RC room door got stuck or something. Started blabbering with Miss Mel about Poly courses (Nursing) all the way until the carpenter came & open the door for us. I saw an interesting course in NYP-- radiation 'something' about cancer. But, I need to be an A level holder before I can take this course up. Sad, disappointed. Carpenter opened the door for us and we realised that someone actually locked up the lower lock which we don't have the key. Blardy hell. Rushed off to Ikea to get my desk and many more. I'am just so lazy to list. Shopped until 9 plus, went home & have supper.

Saturday, FDC training ended at 1pm but I left at 11.30pm. So pissed off. Forget about asking me to elaborate. I'am NOT going to. Then, tution till 3.20pm. It was fun again. Farhan was sitting beside me instead of Shaun. -.- Whatever. He keeps saying I'am noisy. & I think, it's HupSong's bday too. So, I gave him a punch in the stomach when he walked past me. XinKai's favourite quote: "This (O levels) is a serious matter, Don't joke around." (translates to chinese). Then, Jon's quote: "Don't differentiate because this is a chapter on Differentiation. Know why you differentiate." Nice one. & Guess what's mine? "Don't be an idiot, whoever's name"
Rushed home & got changed. Headed for Vivocity. Oh man. It was a freaking long bus journey. My eye lids got super heavy & drifted off to sleep. & It's sooo packed like sardines at Vivocity. Shopped for least than 1hr, I was getting bored so went to get a grab at LJS. Change of plans ---Took bus to Suntec instead. At Suntec, I bought a polo tee at Hushpuppies. Heh. The dogs there look cute. Grins. Then, home sweet home at 11pm. Did homework all the way until 2.30am.

Sunday, Clement came over for tution-ing. Asked him on Locus, EM spectrum & Chem. (: After tution, changed & went outdoors straight away. Took bus to Fareast Plaza. & just like Vivocity, it was packed too. Nevertheless, I stil managed to bring home some plastic bags containing my tee, my skirt jumper and covered shoes. I still wanted to get my blue tee and a tee from KimChii Girl. But, let's wait instead. Sista din't get anything 'cause she doesn't like any of them. Headed to Simei to have a look at Sista & Mom's clothes. Mom bought a dress & pants. Sista bought something (Er, I wasn't sure 'cause I was wandering around the mall with Dad.) Then, had dinner. Shopped somemore & then cabbed home. Studied Chem & now, blogging.

Currently, watching 花样少年少女on youtube. Hah, nice. Wu Zun!! OH, I'am so crazaye over him.

Tomorrow, there's FDC training with Full-uni. Whatever. Anyway, I'am going after my SSP & maybe, there's class deco too.

;Loves, Christina

Seriously, I hate it when teachers come into our class & start to blast at us. In a day, 5 teachers scolded us. Wtf.

Firstly, it was Albert Teoh. He said we never gave quality work in our assignments and homework when he din't really start on Locus & wanting to hop onto the next chapter-- Vectors. Like wth. How are we supposed to give him quality work when we're clueless about Locus despite reading the textbook umpteen times, & looking for answers. Does he ever know how much effort I took to do his homework? I asked other people from E2 & they had the same sentiments too. & I forced myself to do his homework & try to read the textbook again though it was already midnight. However, I agree with this statement of his. "You're the best in SKSS but compared to the better schools like XinMin, you're the lousy ones amongst them." He's like demoralizing us. If I were to be that clever, do you think I will end up in this bloody freaking money-eating school where we've got to pay every cents for every single notes printed for us? If I were to be that clever, I wouldn't probably choose SKSS as my 2nd choice for my secondary school education. If I were to be that clever, I would be currently studying in RGS, shaking my leg & pass Os with flying colours. & Yes, E2 kids are far better than us & much more hardworking. For example, Xian Li & Bao Yi whom did better than me in EOY chose to go to the second class and took up Pure Geog & most of the top 40 students in the whole level go to E2. If thats the case, then why teachers bothered to put the not-so-good inside the best class? Because they want to prove to other schools that they've got a class doing triple science? Then, the aftermath was, us being reprimanded for not being the best. What kind of logic is this? I don't know why did I ever land up in this state, this lousy school. If I had listened to Mom & transferred to Tampines Sec, I guess I will be doing MUCH MORE better. If I had listened to Mom & studied hard for PSLE & at least gotten a 210++, I would be in Pasir Ris Crest Sec or Pasir Ris Sec. How I regretted coming to this school.

Secondly, Emily Cheng. Screamed at her top of her voice just because some of our classmates dint write 400 words for their compo & scolded us stupid. Oh fine. I found it super offensive. I ain't stupid. I'am not a dumb kid ok? You're just refering to a minority & why you've got to drag the innocents one down? Even my Mom never scolded me stupid before in my whole 16years of life. Doesn't she knows that her voice's super duper ear-piercing?

Thirdly, Mr Pinto. Well, his scolding isn't that bad. It's just nagging.

Fourthly, Mrs Quek. Hmm, hers was a counciling session, a heart to heart talk. She told us about her experiences when she was young & it was really touching. Finally she said something that was so pleasant to our ears. "I believe you guys have the potential and can do much better in Bio. I'am looking forward to highest number of distinctions this year." Mrs Quek, thank you for believing in us when the other teachers thought that we're not up to standard. Definitely, not to disappoint you, hereby, I swear to study for Bio no matter what even though I have to stay up till 4am. {Well, I've tried studying until 3am before in Sec 3.}

Fiftly, Miss Cheryl Ong. Haiz. Not gonna elaborate.

Mdm Sharifah's leaving us. Tomorrow's our last History lesson. Today's our last SS lesson. Oh, I will miss my favourite teacher. Eh, I'am not like Bernice. She's REALLY my favourite teacher. I never hate History & SS because of her. Haiz. Take Care, Mdm Sharifah. (:

That was how Wednesday & Thursday passed by. We're reprimanded by almost all our subject teachers. I almost cried when they scolded us. Eventually, I cried at night when everyone was in Lalaland. I did study hard for this past 1 month. Really, no jokes. Last year, I copied homework. But this year, I turned up for every tution session, even wanting to join in the Sec 3 tution class to improve my own standard. I did all my homework until eleven plus in the night & revised for test until 1am. Then, read 2 chapters of storybook every night before I turn in. What for I'am doing this? For my 6 distinctions in Os. My target was to have at least 7 points for Os. I promise I will work hard. I don't want to disappoint myself, teachers & my parents. I want to be the best in my family & prove my relatives wrong. I want to show them that they're wrong at pampering my cousins. I want to show them that I ain't stupid. I want to prove to teachers that we're indeed the best class with the best results. Not even 4E2 or 4E4 can beat us. NO way. 4E1! Let us work towards our goals, I don't want any scoldings everyday anymore.

Anyway, today was a tiring day.
Chinese lesson was fun. Jia Yi & Xin Rui was singing oldies every now and then. Haha. Go join SKY Idol la. Oh yes, did I tell you that because of Albert Teoh, we decided not to join SKY Idol but, Jan, Asyraf, Ling Yan and Ruey Yi are joining, & they're singing "Ai shang wei lai de ni".
Physics lesson was super sick again. Pervert Mr Potato. He said, "Stop fiddling at the back or I come and fiddle you." WTF. I was totally disguisted by him & was saying yuck thru' out the whole lesson. I refused to stand beside him during Physics Prac. Eng SSP, didn't really paying attention to Mrs V. I was rushing my Eng compo. Actually, I wrote it already but I think Emily's gonna scream at me & throw my book onto the floor like Simone's. Sucha humiliation. So, to play safe, I rewrote the whole compo, with an edited storyline. & I'am still angry with AngRen for not helping me with my compo. Damn. After Eng SSP, still rushing Eng compo. Went to Comp lab to finish off my Amaths online test. But, no internet. How how? We panicked. There was nothing we could do so on the count of 1,2,3, we disappeared out of the lab. Haha.
Then, went down to Canteen & finish up our homework. Ruey Yi, Ling Yan, Asyraf, Qikang was studying as well. Hah, hardworking bunch. ;D & we studied from 4.30pm to 6.05pm.
Headed home. Sat on the bus, reflecting on many things while I drifted off to sleep. LOL.
{Anyway, I can sleep anywhere as long as I'am tired. I once stood and slept while waiting for my bus.}

Oh, I so freaking tired. & I don;t know how to do Locus corrections. Gotta ask E2 tomorrow.

;Loves, Christina

I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.
I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.
I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.
I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.
I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.
I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.
I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.
I superduper love Cuckoo Berts, Class 4E1.

Even though, it can be quite annoying being bullied by that darn Asyraf. {!!} Frowns.

But, I guess, since, everyone's joining in for SKY Idol, I ain't afraid to stand on the stage & sing.

& now, we're choosing songs for our item! ;DDD

;Loves,Christina

Saturday

I tried so hard to wake up at 5.30am to go to school & clean RC room but in the end, I couldn't. So I set my alarm to 6.45am. Still, it's useless. Then, at 7.30am, I finally woke up. & I was the last one to reach school. Everyone else was there already. -.-
Went to RP & have breakfast, then played at Future Park. We were screaming at the top of our voices early in the morning. So freaking fun la. Especially with my darlings. (:
FDC training started & Calvin, the commander was stil not here. Of course, we're not slacking even though the commander was not here. The competition is just 1 more week to go. {!!} & We then received a bloody news. Calvin sprained his ankle was playing basketball. Asshole Calvin. Everytime also like that. Last 2 years already once. Then, now, history repeats itself.
Left Future Park at 11.30am to go for tution. Reached home, took a bath & lay flat on my bed. Soooo tired. Then, I heard the sound of keys opening the wooden door of my house. Mum came home from work. I quickly woke up, grabbed my bag & hurried off, without even greeting her. That point of time, I'am still angry with her for picking a fight with me.
Tution was fun! ;D Heh.
After tution, went off to find Calvin, SongWen, YongXuan, XiaoWei & ZhiQi at Tampines Ave 4 where Calvin was visiting a doctor. The guys took a video of Calvin shivering & screaming in agony while the doctor was meddling with his sprained ankle. Haha. & The doctor suspects that he had cracked the bone. Which means, HE CAN'T BE OUR FD COMMANDER. WTF!
Alright, after visiting the doctor, we sat under the rain in SongWen's Dad's lorry. Hah, FUN sia! & definitely, it hurts when the rain was hitting your skin. & I was drenched like don't know what. -.- Went back to SK to find my little darlings who were still having training. Then, ran all the way back to SongWen's house to get XiaoWei's clothes to change. I couldn't possibly go to CP & dine with my all-wet suit.
Fastforwarded. We called Adrian to ask him replacing the commander's place. But, he seems like so reluctant. Next, went to CP & have dinner.
Took bus 27 home & Mum's talking to me again. What's wrong with her man? But it means, I'am getting my allowance again.

Sunday

Home tutor came over. Asked him about Chemistry & Amaths.
Then, rushed down to Changkat CC to get my Merit Bursary Award. Like WTF. Waste my bloody time there. I was almost falling asleep la! & I don't notice any of my tution friends getting this award. It's impossible that they din't get the award. 'Cause they're all so clever. Like Hello? 2 guys from our class are from Victoria School. Maybe, they've already gotten their 500$/300$ Scholorship Award instead of the 250$ Merit Bursary Award.
Went back home & got changed. Off to White Sands to bank in my cheque. No cash-outs. How sad. Ate Macs for late lunch.
Headed to IKEA & Courts. Wow, so fun! I love going there. Dad purchased a new couch & intended to get me a MP4. But in the end, din't get it 'cause there's a 40$ voucher & we're gonna use that to purchase the MP4. At IKEA, we shopped & bought a new computer desk, photo frame, a plant {Don't know what's that}, small side-table, & small portable table. We're getting the shoerack, another side-table {For my scanner,beside my computer desk}, my double-deck bed, a small desk, a lamp this coming week. WEE!! & plus, dining at IKEA was so interesting, though it's crammed with people.
Came home & got started on my Eng compo. It sucks. A piece of crap. Emily's so going to scream into my ear & stare hard at me, wondering why did she ever gave me an A1 for my first journal entry.
Turned in at around 12.30am.

Monday

School's fun. Had SS for the first period. NO WAY MAN! Mdm Sharifah's leaving us. This time, it's real, no joke. I don't want her to leave. The cuckooberts are her darlings!
Then, PE. Had to run two & a half round around the school. Obviously, I slacked & walked two rounds. =p
English lesson was cancelled. Woohoo! Then, freshened up & went for phototaking. After phototaking, our class was gathering at the piano. Sean Hean was playing it. OMG, he knows how to play the piano!! Okay, it's nothing big but, I like guys who know how to play the piano! It's like sooo romantic, & nice, so EVERYTHING! But, too bad. I don't have the feeling for him. -.- Then, an idea popped up. Jiayi requested to have our whole class in the SKY IDOL! Yay! It's like so united, everyone standing on the stage, singing a particular song, which holds a significant meaning for us. & When we think back of these times, these foolish stuffs we did together was indeed something to smile at. 3E1, Ducklings,. 4E1, Cuckoo Berts. (:
Recess. Girlfriends were looking around for Mdm Faezah to get the SKY IDOL registration form.
Emaths. Albert Teoh's big stories again. Crap. & I stil don't understand the Locus thingy. What the shit.
CME. Another crappy lesson. Thinking about Thinking. I only know what's the meaning of Inducive & Positive thinking. & I'am always thinking inducive.
Chem Lab. Somehow fun la. Had to get salts from different carbonates, bases, alkalis, & acids. In the end, we managed to get 3 salts out. & The whole chem lab was smoky. HAHA!
Amaths SSP, also test. Quite ok la. Hoping to get a 40/50. ;D

Alright. Gotta start home-working.

;Loves, Christina

His smiles, his words, his voice, his touch, his everything is just like a promise which makes me unable to forget & let go..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RUEY YI {BIG BIG ASS!}. YOU STILL OWE ME 16 HITS. Can I go watch NC16 movies with you someday? LOL.

& NAT IS OUT OF PSS2!! FAINTS. Nevermind. Daren's not bad either. ;DD

Things I hate about Mr Selva also known as, Mr Potato:

• His big tummy.
• His bald head.
• His pervertic jokes.
• His stupid nagging at AngRen & Asyraf's hair when he's only got some strands of hair & it's bloody short.
• His unclear explanations.
• The way he speaks.
• The way he pushes up his spectacles & with the little fingers poking out.

Basically, I hated EVERYTHING of him. Totally disguisted by him. &Here's a back view of him during our Physics Lab. Yucks!

Can you see the background? Priscilla & Munirah was practically getting bored with his stupid experiment on the frequency & the bell thingy.

& He ticked us off when we asked him to write the bloody answer on the board. He then went off mentioning stuffs like in college & blah. So, I showed attitude & talked back. Heck.

Anyway, talking about Mr Potato makes me wanna puke my breakfast. So, had classes today before the trip to Temasek Poly. Well, overall, I think that the trip to TP was quite a harvest. At least, I benefited & knew more about Biomedical Technology. (: The TP students were welcoming us with our famous SengKang "I've got SengKang deep down in my heart" cheer, & we saw many familar faces like YuanLong & Desmond. & we were cam-whoring at the School of Engineering while waiting for Razin, Doreen, Jiahui & HuiJun. Then, after the whole trip, we were making our way out of TP, a group of people waved us goodbye at the gate. Munirah, Haslinda & I felt like we were walking on the red carpet so we bid them goodbye too. Who knows, a bunch of guys scared the wits out of me by screaming, 'BOO!' while I was waving. & Guess what? I screamed. -.- & They were all laughing. Oh man. What a disgrace! After that, boarded bus 8 to TM & sent the rest home since it's my territory. Haha. Reached Tampines Interchange, I heard someone calling me. I turned & saw Mom. She said, she's going to Courts to pay off some bills. & I followed. Then, I had an urge to have Spagetti at PastaMania. & requested to have dinner there. But, Mom din't know & she went back down to Level 1. Then, I was freaking pissed off & my patience was running out.

So I was told her, "Fuck la, I want eat Pasta there. Then you come down for what la!?"

She said, "I don't know, I thought it's at Basement."

"Forget it la! I don't want eat liao."

"Then go Macs?"

"I lunch-ed there in the afternoon!"

& We walked out of TM. My face was all-black & I was fuming mad. Walked over to Tampines Interchange & she started talking to me about the trip to TP. I was like, "SHUT THE FUCK UP LA! STOP BOTHERING ME!" So, we debated for a long time. She threw the TP bag which she was carrying it for me onto the floor. Everyone turned & look. I din't give a damn freaking care. & There goes my temper. She's stepping on my nerves.

She was saying, no one would scold their parents the word Fuck & I was no different from the NT & NA students even though I do much better than them in results.

& then, I told her, You might never know. You are the older generation, you don't scold the word Fuck. Even if you scolded, it sounds like Fart to us 'cause your generation's much conservative & received Chinese education. & Every friend of mine would had scolded the word once or more in their whole entire life of 16 years. & Plus, I'am MUCH different from the NA & NT students. I've got better brains. I only swear with the word, Fuck. I don't scold those unrefined words like CheeBye & LanJiao which Gary & ZhiYuan always scolded. I'am much a civilised person compared to them.

She got offended & our cold war started officially on 19/01/07, 5.57pm. & I was messaging Jason all the way home. I need a listening ear man. He adviced to make peace with her. NO WAY MAN! We just patched up yesterday & now, she's making a mole out of moutain, trying to pick a fight with me. & She took the lift home alone not waiting for me. So, I ran & purposely pressed the button, went into the lift & din't bother to press the "Close" button. A guy came in, & pressed it. "6th Floor" the lift announced. & home. Dad was home & she told Dad the whole thingy. Then, my Dad was siding her {That's without saying right?} & he was forcing me to dine with them at TM. He threated, "You want eat pasta right? Go out with us! I TREAT you to PizzaHut!" I rejected the offer without thinking even though I loved PizzaHut. I just hated the idea of eating with my Dad & Mom when they will start nagging at us. Even my sista was shouting in our room, "Wtf. Once reach home, all you can hear is scoldings. Shut up la!" So, I'am not intending to have dinner tonight since I could use this opportunity to slim down & cut my fats {Well, not as much as Mr Potato}.

Photos taken at TP will be uploaded as soon as possible when Priscilla & Munirah transfer them into the computer.

I hate my Dad for not taking us into consideration when he smokes infront of us. I hate him when he disallows me to use the computer when I needed them urgently. I hate him for being sucha bias father.

I hate my Mom for picking a fight with me whenever she can. I hate my Mom for looking an eye on me since young. I pratically have no FREEDOM, not mentioning, Privacy.

I hate my Sista for being sucha bootlicker. I hate my Sista for being sucha adorable girl.

I hate my whole family for ill-treating me, not giving me the love that I deserve.

;Loves, Christina

SCREAMS OH NOOOO!
Pimples are all popping out over my face. I just looked sooo freaking shagged.


Alright. What a free Wednesday night I've got. Just Amaths homework & studying the answer scheme for Social Studies test tomorrow. Grins. The thing is, I've finished my Amaths homework in school with Zhoudao a.k.a Alan Kok ZiDan. That leaves my revision for SS.
& I'am done with it.

School was fun today. Really, no kidding. We played like crazy during recess, classes, & after school while waiting for SSP. It all started with Chemistry lesson when Jiayi suddenly mentioned the old sentence, "Shaun's eyes are soo beautiful like dog's eyes." ROFL. Then, Shaun said bunny. Wtf. No longer bunny ok!? & stop calling me RBB, David (Ruey Yi)! After Chem lesson, Lingyan hit Jiayi's butt (I think so) & we were making a mole out of a mountain & laughed like crazy fellows all the way back to classroom. Then Physics lesson. Finally, we knew how Mr Selva draws his stickman. So pervertic & yet so artistic. & I did my BIG business together with LPJ in toilet for 10minutes.
Then, had 30minute break while waiting for SSP. Went down to canteen & grab a bite. Back to classroom before SSP, it was hell noisy in our class. Haha. Cause, Jiayi's hitting Gary also known as Bo-lan, meaning, no 'ahems' in hokkien. PS, Aloy's got the pictures (Guess so).
& Asyraf was a total bullier. Not gentle-man at all. Grr.

& wow, Jason's specs broke again. My black specs had not gone into repair for a long time. This shows how much I know how to maintain it. Haha.

Okay, I'am turning in soon. So early, 10pm.
Oh yes! I've finished my storybook. The best book ever read from the beginning of this year till now. Seriously, it's nice. & I'am recommending it. Girls, read up on 'If I have a stepmother, where's my prince?". It rocks & I got addicted to it.

;Loves, Christina

What a typical school day.
Filled with heaps of homework & gotta get it done by TOMORROW {later}!
Right. STRESS-filled with heaps of homework which has to be done by TOMORROW {later!}. How I wished it was FUN-filled with leisure games. Facing up to reality, there aren't any leisure for Sec 4s. Especially, when I've got an asshole sitting beside me during History lesson. It's never peace with him around. Maybe, I shouldn't mention names but you ought to know who I always quarrel with in class. Yes, that asshole is none other than Asyraf. -.- You might be thinking, why did I CHOOSE to sit with him? I'am sorry. This ISN'T my choice. I've got no SAY in it. Mdm Sharifah made that arrangement because he was too talkative, disturbing the class by chatting with another asshole friend of his, Aloysius. Oh faints. & He kept saying I was laughing/smiling for no reason. Eh, I'am laughing at myself for being SO unlucky to be seated beside you for the rest of my 9 last months in this school, & yes, of course, laughing at you for being such an retard who kept laughing/smiling too. {Hah!}
So, basically, nothing much happened in class today except that my Mum messaged me in class saying I've forgotten my beret for my full-uniform. Ah crap. I'am glad that I've forgotten my beret so that I need not wear them for training. Eventually, I din't turn up for training 'cause I was rushing Amaths homework in the library with Zhoudao. I'am sooo frustrated with the library mangement. I swear not to go there & study unless it's freaking stuffy hot on some certain days. Imagine, Media Club was making so much of noise, & that Priscilla Kong didn't ask them to lower down their volume. What the hell. Then, nevermind about that. Next, a bunch of kiddies went over to use the computer beside us & din't lower the freaking sound system. So, I was hearing both music & the stupid 'Game Over' sound. How irritating!
& Mr Albert Teoh made me buy a useless compass when I've already got one at home & he din't use it for the rest of his lesson. Partially, it's my fault 'cause I forgotten to pack it into my bag & plus, I refused to borrow a compass from another class.
Had an sudden SS SBQ test today during SSP too. Not much problem with SBQ since we've already practiced those skills zillion times over & over again. Was glad that I took History 'cause most of the Geographers were asking the Historians about asking SBQs.
Uh huh, I only went for 15minutes of training. At least, I turned up. Better late than never.
Skipped Committee Meeting after training & went home.

Reached home at 6.45pm, freshened up & got ready for tution at 8pm. Did some homework & then watched Campus SuperStars TV show. Darn super nice with ZHIYANG, ADRIANO inside! WEEHAAA! Then, went ahead with tution at 8pm. Feeling sooo sleepy during lessons. Until, a smelly figure slumped right beside me --- Leung Ho Fung. Oh man, it's him again. For the rest of the lesson, I was 'bullied' by him, & definitely, I had my fair share, so I bullied him too {He's soo going to find out that hes got blueblacks all over. Thanks to me!}. I think Jon can't stand the both of us whenever we start to talk. Tution dragged & ended at 9.45pm.

Did homework AGAIN. & chatted with people. Had so many favors. WeeSern asked me to ask Clement tutor whether he wants to teach a friend of his. Then, Alif urged me to check the meaning of some phrase which it seemed clueless to me. However, I couldn't. Then, was chatting with Pris & Munirah dearie.

& I just read dearie's blog. & she mentioned about the singing of national anthem today. Well, you know, our so-ever-lousy PA system is not working AGAIN. So, that head councillor took the mic & sang right into it. Mr Zul din't even asked him to do that. & he did that on his own accord. Trying to show off your voice eh? I think I can sing better than you do. & PUH-LEESE. You finally dropped Bio. I was hoping for this day for like so darn freaking long. A guy who cheated in Bio exam ought to have dropped Bio long ago. & I knew it long ago a so-lazy guy like you who always calls people up in the middle of the night to ask for homework, copy homework would never survive in the world of memorising Bio facts. & Mr Singh was actually praising him in front of the Secs4s, 5s & 3s? & people are actually applausing for his so-called courage. Yeah, hes got guts to copy in EOY & got so arrogant because of his stupid act. There's nothing to be proud of. You've got what you deserved --- our whole class's disrespect. Hey people, open your eyes big man, stop idolizing him. & I hate acting like an hypocrite infront of him. Have to act sweet & friendly to him. Oh God damn it.

I think there's a new transferred guy from Holy Innocents' to our school, in class 4E4. Heard many rumors about him.

English, Emaths, MT, Amaths, Physics, Chem, Sciences SSP tomorrow.
Oh shucks. English, screamings!! Emaths, big tall stories again!! MT, darn shit. I've not done my group newspaper article report. They said, heckcare. Fine with me. (: Amaths, perfect. I love Amaths with Mr Pinto. Physics, HELL NO {Points a cross sign at Selvarasoo}!! Chemistry, hmm, it's alright not to have lab work. I hate that. SSP from 3-5, which means, 1hr of training only. Rofl.

OHrights. I need to turn in soon before I get dizzy & couldn't open my eyes wide tomorrow morning. It's IMPORTANT to stay awake in classes!

;Loves, Christina

How I wished it would just pour heavily, & wash away all my tears..

Guess what? I'am having Tuesday blues now.
I'am afraid to go to school. Terrified to see my whole list of homework on just one particular day. Just by hearing those teachers saying this phrase "Best Class," totally scares me off.

Mood swings.

I swear I'll TRY not to blog-hop anymore. Seriously, now I hate reading people's deepest thoughts in their blog. Sometimes, those things that they wrote in their blog might just pierce right through your heart & you can't really express how it feels like. All you can do is to surpress the feeling & get over it. Afterall, I knew it long ago that it will end up this way.

All of a sudden, I felt so friend-less & my social circle is just so small. I knew none of my friends are enjoying their dreams now & I could tell them my frustrations. But I couldn't tell them certain things. Gayatri, who was my bestie, now turned out to be a busy woman 'cause of her committments to RC as the Chairman of SKRCY. It's hard finding time out to call her let alone to chat. Then, the another 5 girl-friends of mine, what about them? It's not that I don't want to let them know what's happening. It's just that I find it hard to open it up to them. Am I drifting further from you girls?

Maybe you're right, Jason. I should had just given up long ago. Why did I let myself fall into this deep trap & let myself get hurt? Only myself in that so-deep-hole. I regretted not heeding friends' advices & got so stubborn. After a dream, you've got to come back to reality. After crying, you've got to get on with life. After the rain stops, a rainbow appears. Initially, I thought I could just swallow all those hurt. I thought I could overcome everything with that tinny winny hope, but it turned out to be wrong.

Why can't I just be Cinderella, minus the dead mother, wicked stepmother, evil stepsisters, friendless? If I am Cinderella, then where's my Prince? But, it would never happen. 'Cause it wouldn't be Cinderella anymore without the dead mother, wicked stepmother & evil stepsisters.

Oh my, my tears are flooding out.

I love my life. Yes, I do. But, how come, my life turned topsy-turvy ever since the year started? Everything's wrong. Where did my old-self go to? Why am I losing interest in RC, which was once my favourite pastime, where I could just let my hair down & be crazy for that moment? Why am I now so obessed with studying? Homework, assignments, tests are what I relate to school now. It's totally different in the past.

I miss primary school days. Those innocent days when we played hopscotch in the canteen during recesstime. Those playful days when we made fun of Joanne & Serene almost every breaktime. Those stupid days when we purposely jumped in the container classrooms to make the whole level shake as if there was an earthquake. Those childishlike days when we go 'woooo' whenever Pearlyn's fav teacher pass by.
Something shameful which I did in my last year was etched so clearly in my mind. I was the prefect that day on duty to say the pledge. & when it's time to stand at attention, I blurted out, 'School, Senang diri' into the mic when it's supposed to be 'School, Sediya.' & my whole face was burning red.
& I have to blame Jethro Tan for making me so short. All his bloody fault for chasing me occassionally to hit my head because I made fun of him & his admirer. Haha. So what if you're taller than me?!
My ever chat mate in class was my partner--Sean Chan. I could still remember, Miss Kua who kept telling us off, asking us to stop talking. But we just can't.
The first party I went to was Clarissa's bday party & I had lots of fun there, drawing your face with makeups. Lol!
& the list goes on & on.

Now, I guess I've got to let go of everything. Perhaps, the idea of letting go isn't that bad afterall.
Letting go isn't giving up. It's just accepting that some things are not meant to be. (I saw that clause from YingShan's blog.)

Alright, back to school life.
Went to school, as usual, phone was vibrating all the way, {Haha} had SS for the first period. I never knew L5 answers could be that long & no L5 attained. =.=
Then, had PE. OH MY GOD. 2.4km run AGAIN. I hate running. I'am not metal leg Jason. {Rofl}. The weird thing is, I don't have any aches after all the exercises & running. But, I'am actually only experiencing it now.
English lesson. The always-so-awake lesson with all those screamings. Poor Simone. She got scolded on her bday.
Recess. I'am getting my pay from Auntie tomorrow! YAY!!! & something big happened during recess. I was totally shocked to see the guys behaving like this, bullying an old man, & not cleaning up their own plates. Uncivilised.
Emaths. Albert Teoh's big tall stories again. LPJ almost fell asleep & I was trying to keep myself awake. Gotten back Emaths test results. 15/20. Not bad afterall. I thought I would have flunk it. Amazingly, I didn't. Or I have to turn up for future Emaths SSP.
CME. Did Emaths corrections & classwork. Then, decorated class for awhile.
Chem Lab. Did titration. But, it's irritating to do all the calculations on Mole. I dreaded that even though I could do them. So, I just copied Jiayi's.
Went back to class, waited for Mr Pinto & the rest of the class. Amaths SSP started officially at 2.50pm, 20minutes late. & he proceed on to Product Rule which Jon taught during tution.
Ended at 3.50pm, stayed back & questioned him on some questions I've done.
Met XL at school porch area & off to her house to study.
Reached home at 7.30pm. Did homework until 10pm, ate dinner while scanning in the attendance for EUA. Yawns.
So, here I am blogging.

只要笑一笑，没什么事情过不了！;)

;Loves, Christina

I'am back with all my Social Studies information stored up there.
Oh man. I can't believe that I took sucha long time get a bloody essay into my head.
I guess, it's because I've not been memorising essays for too long. Like say, 2months or so?
& now, my memory's getting rusty.
Oh shucks, I simply hate Social Studies/History SEQ test. Gotta memorise like hell.
Why did I ever choose to have History as my subject combination? Somehow regretted. It's so much easier being a Geographer rather than a Historian. Just read the map, & blah blah. It's better than studying Hitler all the time.
But, on the other hand, it's fun reading up about WWII, & Hitler.

Plus, Mdm Sharifah din't really mention when is the Social Studies test.
She just said, "Class, there is a SS test next week." So, who knows when's the SS test.
In another word, I'am just reading through the information and get them stored nicely in one corner of my brain. There isn't a need to really go study them. Just to play safe, & to be a good kid, I'am glancing them through.

Alright, I guess I have to say my deepest thanks to Jason for helping me with my Chinese compo. Well, he helped me edited my mistakes & called me up to tell me where I went wrong. Thanks Bro! ;D {PS. Afterall, your Chinese isn't that bad too. Laughs!}
&&& my Munirah dearest, & the Munirah-claims-him-to-be-hot-guy AngRen who helped me lots with my English Journal. Oh man, I was struggling with that ok? Seriously, I don't realise that my English was that lousy-till-like-shit until today. Now, I've gotta tell those who think that my English is good, that my English sucks when compared to some prodigys. So stop telling me my English is how good, I will end up crying in one corner 'cause I would be probably thinking that it's such a sarcastic comment.
Yes, not forgetting, Sista for helping me with my newly-changed blogskin. Hmm, you might had noticed that my skin's the same as hers. 'Cause I liked the one that she liked too. We've got good chemistry plus, great minds think alike! Heh. She totally rock-ed. Helped me edit the template & blah. I guess, she's got some talents in designing blogskins. Ah uh, definitely not me who's got the talents. I'am such a computer/blogskins idiot.
Oh yes, LingYan & Pris, it's not funny always putting me & him together. One day, I might just blast off at you two. Haha.

Guess that I've blabbered enough & it's time for me to get down to work. I meant, I need to revise/readthru' the SS notes again before I forget them totally.

;Loves, Christina
Uh oh! School's tomorrow. AGAIN!!

What the hell!
I hate writing essays on Food. I just don't know how to describe the aroma, taste & blah. Plus, my english sucks. My vocab is limited. Ah!

Anyway, take a look at my journal --describing a food item:
Though KFC has two kinds of chicken, my all-time favorite is its yummy Original Recipe chicken. The Original Recipe is the first chicken recipe which made KFC swarmed with customers and renowned. The tender juicy chicken is freshly-cooked by coating it with the seasoning of savory rich herbs and spices for its full heavenly flavor and then fried to golden perfection which brings out the unique, original KFC taste. The succulent juice that leaks out after each bite is what makes the Original Recipe so mouth-watering, appetizing and enticing. The aroma of the freshly-prepared chicken spreads and makes it irresistible. I prefer to pair it with Cheese Fries with delicious, cheesy cheese over the golden fries, topped with mayonnaise and fresh spring onion. However, the chicken could be quite fattening with all the cholesterol and saturated fats. But it doesn’t harm if you have it occasionally as it is satisfying.

Alright. I woke up at 12noon today & started doing homework all the way until 7.30pm. What a chiongster.

;Loves, Christina

Your Love Song Is

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson "Maybe you've been through this beforeBut it's my first time so please ignoreThe next few lines cause they're directed at you I can't always be waiting, waiting on you I can't always be playing, playing your fool" You've been waiting for love, and you're not going to wait any longer!

You've Got It Bad For Him

For better or worse, you've always got your friend on the brain.If he digs you too, this could be a very good thing.If not, at least you tried! You've got to make a move and find out.You might discover that he's been pining away for you as well.

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of wayYou just get most guys - even if you're not trying toGuys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secretsNo wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

You Belong in New York

You could be an "it girl," if you wanted to be...Just be a little more outgoing and let people see how great you are.You've got what it takes - you just have to put it out there!

You Go For Brains!

You want a guy with a big... brain.And of course it would be nice if he were a total hottie, but you're not counting on it.What's on the inside is what counts for you. (Besides, you can always change the outside later!)

You Are 55% Bitchy

Generally, you're an average woman, with average moods. But sometimes... well, watch out!Sometimes, you let your mean side get the better of you. And you enjoy every minute of it.

An extract from Munirah dearie's blog.

This is what she said,
"just now christina back-stab me can?haha.jkjk.i mean,i wrote in my blog tat tat guy is hot,which he is! and christina threaten me tat she wud tell him wat i wrote abt him in my blog and i was like,dont so bad and embarress him and let him read for himself.i mean its bad enuff tat arnd him are mostly girls.haha.and there i was sitting doin nothin and wondering y this enormous round potato eats into our bio period so we have two hours wit him and he is late so some classmates decided to lock the door to prevent him from entering.and den the hot one came.took his sit beside me.so wat was i doin?giving christina the 'i dare u' look.and she was smiling slyly at me and suddenly she blurted out "ang ren do u want to knoe wat munirah thinks of u?!'and i was thinking shit,i didnt knoe she wud really do it.ouh gawd ouh gawd ang ren pls dont be angry.and den he was like "wat?" and christina said "she thinks u are hot!!" and i was like in my heart ouh gawd ouh fuck ouh shit ang ren pls dont be mad dont be pissed off dont think im a wierdo dont say u wanna switch places wit tat used to be short guy so u sit beside tat daughter of a lawyer.but den u knoe wat happen?it was kinda unexpected.ang ren actually smiled like really wide!!like fucking wide with the teeth and the happy look in the eyes ok u get it.i mean ive nvr seen him smile like tat.almost four years of being in the same skool as him nvr hv i seen him smile like tat.so ang ren was like "really??" wit his wide smile and all.and all of us were laughing at his reaction and i was like so relief he wasnt angry.phew.so chritstina said "ya.munirah says if u wear contact lens,comb ur hair properly,u look hot."and i think ang ren just smiled.and fyi ang ren i notice u cudnt stop touching ur hair.there is no mirror in the class no use adjusting ur hair there.hah.so during the potato's lesson me and christina keep throwing notes to each other eventhough she is just infront of me.i have so many lovely ppl arnd me in class.yeah.and she said his reaction like tat is becos on one has called him hot b4.really meh? ok so i asked ang ren "so has anyone else ever called u hot b4?" and he replied smiling "of course ah"-_-"
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
"and i love my class too.especially christina,melanie and haslinda.i said christina cos she'll be reading my blog again.haha.so tat used to be short guy is not sitting next to me in class.its ang ren,my class chairman.well,better den tat annoying guy who always asks to copy hw.and also,whoever agrees tat if ang ren wears contact lens and combs his hair neatly,he will be hot?raise ur hands wit me!haha.its true lah.no kidding.and somemore i think ang ren uses the same perfume as my razin.so wen i get a whiff of his perfum,i'll tink abt razin,even during lesson time.haha.but its weird lah ang ren.u are in track and field and u are one of our school's best runners(i think) and u hate running?haha.but anyways,my razin will and always will be my number one sexy and drop-dead-gorgeous one.hehe.and i so cant wait for tm cos razin is coming over.its like skool started and i dont see much of him,except for in malay class.and skool is extremely hectic and i get tons of hw everyday.wen u think u hv cleared a humongous pile and u feel relief and all and u think u can finally rest.but no..the next day,anthr big pile comes.and suddenly a test.but its worth it.i mean,honestly,if teachers dont give hw,usually,well majority of students wont really study,like say,me.haha.and if they dont give tests,we wud all study last minute for exams,which is seriously a bad habit.and i love all my teachers cos they are all loving and gorgeous,except for tat round potato.i think i wanna drp his subject.and today i didnt bring the textbk on purpose cos my bag was too heavy and im considering dropping the subject anyway.so anyways,thanks ang ren for sharing ur textbook with me just now.haha.the vibrater joke just cudnt stop my class frm laughing.u see,this is wat u get frm a bio class.wen the potato says his father has his own vibrator,the whole class laughed hysterically."

Oh man. I just love her & of course, her blog. LOL. Happy now, Munirah?

;Loves, Christina

HELLOOOOO PEEKS, (:

Christina's got an annoucement to make:
I'VE UPGRADED MY WINDOW MEDIA PLAYER 9SERIES TO WMP 11!!
Lol, well, it's not really a big news either.
&&
MUNIRAH, MY LESBO. I LOVEEEE HER SO MUCH.

Alright, woke up at 8.20am today, & rushed off to Rivervale Plaza to have FDC training.
What the hell la. Made me wait there for 1hour before all turned up. All were late except me & sista. Do they have the slight sense of urgency?!
Then, trained at Future Park for 1hr or so & off I went for tution.
I love Amaths tution. I don't know why.
Came home & slacked until now. Not gotta touch my homework until tomorrow. I'll just let my hair down for one day. I'am a human. So, humans need break too.

Going to visit the Tampines Regional Library to borrow new books again. I've finished 4 books in just one week. Satisfied with myself. Grins.

Anyway, I think I'am having mood swings now.

;Loves, Christina

YAY! WEEEEEHA!
Guess what? NO AMATHS HOMEWORK.
Finally, one day, there isn't any homework to rush 'cause the duedate isn't tomorrow.
So, IT'S SLACKING TIME! I'am gonna blog a post that is soooo long 'cause I've not been blogging for days.

First good thing:
I think everyone had became much more matured. Our class's sooo much different from last year's 3E1. It seems like, we've got the urge to finish all homework at one shot & there isn't many people copying homework from others. During breaks in between periods, everyone seem to be doing something. Either doing homework or reading a book. During lessons, it's only the teacher's voice you can hear most of the time. & amazingly, our class requested to have 1hour of Amaths homework everyday. Big difference huh?
Second good thing:
SSP's starting. It's Self-Study Program for short. All the way until 5pm.
Here's the schedule: Monday, Emaths & Amaths SSP. Tuesday, Humanities SSP. Friday, Chinese, Chemistry & Physics SSP. Which means, I can skip trainings. ;DDDD Not just that, it prevent us from all the distractions which we will face at home. For instance, computer. {Yeah, I cannot concentrate studying at home 'cause of my blogging addiction--- Er, but I somehow kicked it off lately.}
Third good thing:
I've firmly made up my mind on where I'am going after Os & I'am going to stick to it. My next destination after secondary school life's either in Meridian JC or Temasek Poly taking up nursing course. I've always loved nursing/doctoring since I was having my primary school education. & thats the main reason why I joined Red Cross, so that I can perform First Aid.
Fourth good thing:
I see rays of hope in my subject combinations. 'Cause, I'am loving every lesson. Including, English with Emily Cheng. (: I love her screamings {LOL.} Ah no, I was just kidding. I meant, we could really learn lots of vocab during her lessons & improve tremendously in our English standards. As for Emaths, most of the time, Albert Teoh goes monotone, & keep telling us big tall stories. However, I have to admit that I actually admired the way he teaches & the way he tries to change the way our class studies. Well, Pinto gives HELL LOTS of homework, but I enjoyed doing them 'cause it's for our own practice. Oh my, Mr Selva. His jokes are SERIOUSLY LAME & PEVERTIC. But, partially, because we are Bio students, so we tend to think DIRTY. Chinese lesson. YAY! Miss Eileen Ong's becoming to have a sense of humor. Haha. Chemistry, although Miss Cheryl Ong goes 'zoom' in the explanation {In case you don't understand, it means that, she somehow rushed through the chapters & I go blur.} Biology, still the same, sleepy, eye lids heavy. >< First bad thing:
Teachers are still repeating the same old clause. {Definition of clause: A group of words with verbs. Definition of phrase: A group of words without verbs} "You're the cream of the crop. The best class. We expect the best from you all." It's the crappiest sentence I ever heard from last year till now. However, with this sentence, it gives me the motivation to work hard towards my goal of achieving 12 points for my Os & get into either Meridian JC or Temasek Poly for my desired course.
Second bad thing:
Jason's in camp = my phone's so quiet. Groans. I hate having my phone not vibrating during lessons, not used to seeing my blank wallpaper whenever I flip my phone. Plus, it's raining the whole two days. Hopefully, it doesn't rain tonight or else, they can't have their campfire. Talking about that, it reminds me of CAMPUNITY's campfire. I did the most craziest things during that campfire-- dancing, singing, behaving like a retard, an idiot and blah. Haha.
Third bad thing:
All the studying, will come in use in just another 10months or more. Just 10more months to endure. {Easier said than done. GROANS.}
Fourth bad thing:
I think I'am not 'following' the new year resolutions that I've set for myself. AH!


Anyway, I saw this in LingYan's blog.
你以为爱情是什么？ 一点点的动心，一点点的冲动，一个拥抱一个吻？ 天真的人，日剧看多了，痞子蔡的文章看多了。 这也许是爱情的一部分，但绝对不是大部分
爱情的主体是生活，一起生活 你能陪她一时的难过，但你能陪她承受所有的压力吗？ 你能给她身体的温度，但你能给她生活的方向吗？ 你可曾想象当热情褪去，
拥抱对你已经有任何吸引力 你们如何走下去？ 距离是真爱的考验，由时间作为答案, 为了你深爱的人，请做出点牺牲，守住你们的爱情
,否则怎么能谈得上真正的爱情,
你可以忘记以前的誓言，但要记住自己的真心。 扪心自问，你是否爱得那麽深？ 你愿意让两个人都受伤吗？
爱，绝不是缺了就找，更不是累了就换 ,生活不是一人好好的活,
是两个人如何一起好好, 但是一些客观的原因，显示中你目前还不能在一起,
难道你就轻易放弃，而委曲求全了吗？ 难道你就不能为爱守侯吗？
你允许自己的目光如此短，而只看见眼前的快乐吗？ 一生就这样地走完吗？
是真爱，就永不言弃!~~~Indeed true. What's true love? Do you actually expect to know the real meaning of true love in secondary school? Do you even know how to love a person wholeheartedly at the age of 15?
There will only be 0.05% of true love existing in secondary school life or, just 50% that most couples we see in school now will last a lifetime long & get married in the end. Then, why should we land ourselves in such a plight, fasincating & dreaming about the love we shared with a guy/a girl? Worst still, some even neglected their studies & cooped themselves up in their own world, thinking that the boyfriend/girlfriend was the right one for them.
I have to say, in sec school, the liking of opposite gender is because of the hormones working inside us. Plus, sec school is all full of temptations. You tend to fall for Guy A, then find Guy B quite attractive, go for Guy B & then ditch Guy B. See, this is just a chain that happens in sec school relationships.
But, I don't repel the idea of dating in sec school. It's just that, I find it ridiculous crying over a guy/girl at such young age & claiming, it's true love. Even for myself, I think I'am stupid falling in love at this age.
& I admit there will be the existence of true love, but its seldom rare. It's hard to find someone who is really meant for you. Do you bear to sacrifce something which was once so important to you for a worthless guy/girl? Are you willing to go through thick & thin with him/her? If you are, then I have to say, you're silly. Silly enough to change your own self because of him/her. At the end of this relationship, you will find yourself to be the most hurt, & losing your own self.
In another words, single's the best. & I'am loving every minute of being single. I don't want to entangle myself in a relationship web. I will wait till the right time, the right moment, the right guy.

Alright. Gotta go. Buhbye. ;)

;Loves, Christina

Oh My. Seriously, I can faint now.
Lots & tons of homework lying in my file, & was jotted down in my small little notebook.
Here, take a look at my to-do list. Aw, groans.
Today's homework:

• Emaths textbook (Q5, page 6; Q7, page 22; Q12, page 24; Q4, page 27)
• Organise Chemistry notes (Acids, Bases & Salts), History file
• Social Studies worksheets (PPT slides & assignment)
• History source-based question (Q1C)
• Amaths texbook (Exercise 12C, Q1-5, from question a to l)
• Read up Amaths textbook, chapter 12, example 6 to 12

Upcoming tests:

• Friday----History source-based test (Memorise Q1B answer scheme)
• Tomorrow----Emaths Statistics & Cumulative Frequency Distribution

Reminders:

• Get Social Studies & History file from bookshop
• Bring along $5.50 for Social Studies & History TYS
• Buy the new school PE t-shirt 'cause mine's too ugly
• Clear my locker ASAP!!!
• Buy exercise book from bookshop for English Phrasebook (I've lost them. =X)
• GET MY FULL-UNIFORM NICELY DONEUP WITH ALL BADGES FOR TOMORROW'S PROMOTION CEREMONY!!!!!

See, a bunch of things waiting for me to do. & I think I'am developing a fever. It's raining the whole day & I got drenched while running to KFC to have lunch with sista. Plus, I sneezed thru'out the whole day too. My throat's getting hoarse again.

Oh yeah, Jason's going for his school camp tomorrow. So good luh, Sec 4 still can go camp. Envy him. Eyes red with jealousy. HAHA. Anyway, enjoy your camp {Say it in a very moody way. Lol.} & MUST message me or else, i'am gonna be bored to death in classes.

Alright. Gotta rush & finish up my Emaths homework & study for Emaths test which is tomorrow despite my stupid running nose, & headache.

;Loves, Christina

I hate reading emails. It's either RC stuffs or just some stupid forwarded messages.
& I had no choice but to open them up. Those forwarded messages might contain viruses. Don't know why the others just love clicking the 'forward' & 'send' button.

Alright. Kind of happy with myself 'cause I din't touch the computer & blog for like 5 days straight. Seriously, I had no idea why I could do that. Maybe because, I was too tired everyday after school so din't had the mood to blog. You know, everyday listening to Mr Teoh talking in class could seriously make me go dozing off.

Anyway, let me go through the sequence of events from Thursday till today.
Just to remind you, there's quite alot of the 'F' word.

Thursday
Went for school. Well, basically, it's only the second day of school. & since, 4E1 had quite a number of teachers being changed away. For example, our new Physics teacher, Mr Selva. So, I call that day a 'teacher-get-to-know-us-day'. Yeah, teachers introduced their expectations of us, the 'lesson rules' & our own introductions. Like, "I'am Christina, blah blah blah."
School ended with Mr Selva's lame jokes {Plus, it can be quite offensive.} at 2.30pm.
Rushed for FDC training which started 30 minutes already. I sacrificed my lunch for that. Trained & trained. Frankly speaking, I have to say, there isn't any IMPROVEMENT in our drills. Till now, it still sucks like hell. Now, I wished I've never joined FDC, & disgrace my own face in front of my friends from other units. Maybe, our FD head doesn't even know how to train us. If there isn't any seniors there to help us, I think our drills would had been a piece of shit. Also, from 2pm to 6pm, 4 straight hours of FD. Let me tell you, kill me. I would rather die than to do 4 straight hours of FD. I can't even endure 4 hours of standing under the scorching sun, what even the juniors? Then, I showed attitude. Yeah, I know the consequences of an NCO showing attitude. But, who cares? Do I look as if I care? I fucking hell don't give a freaking care.
But, my Sec 3 darlings' are joining back in FDC. Thanks darlings'.
& I'am glad that I've got SSP almost everyday from tomorrow onwards until 5pm. 'Cause then, I don't find the need to go for FDC training. Even though SSP can be quite torturing at times.

Friday
Din't turn up for lessons/classes. Instead, I was down for the Sec 1 Orientation camp duty. My day started off with a stupid quarrel with Zhi Qi. I tell you, we're both stubborn & insists on our own stand point. Therefore, it's always US quarreling. I shan't elaborate much on our quarrel. Then, reached Macritchie Reservoir for the FA duty as the Sec 1s are going for their familiarisation run to get prepared for the upcoming cross-country day. & out of nowhere, a FAMILY of monkeys surrounded us. I bet it's because of Raj who used the loudspeaker in the middle of the forest which alarmed the monkeys. So, I started screaming. Never in my life I stood sooo close to a monkey. Neither did I ever seen a monkey's ass until 05/01/2007. First time in my whole 15 years of screwed up life I got in contact with a bunch of monkeys. Soon, we returned back to school after the familiarisation run at Macritchie Reservoir.
& this is when my mood swung again. I was pulling a long face in front of everyone. Sec 3 darlings' are panicking around due to the undone/not-so-organised CCA Carnival. Was really pissed off but managed to surpress my anger. The venue of our booth was wrong, & everything went out of our control.
Nevermind about that. CCA Carnival started. Wilson Sir turned up. Surprised & stressed out, but still quite at ease. NCOs were screaming their lungs out, trying to have as many recruits as possible. & the Sec 2s were doing NOTHING. Well, from my point of view, they did NOTHING. But, maybe from others' opinion, they might have some contributions. & plus, my voice's really going off soon. You can hear the hoarse-ness {Whatever you spell it} in my voice. Then, rain poured. Quickly packed our booth & moved into the shade, the passageway. & the place was like sooo narrow with 2 classes of Sec 1s there & our whole unit too. So, the NCOs decided to promote RC despite the rain, but the Sec 2s were blocking our way. Like WTF. You guys can don't promote, but do you need to block the way? & I just pushed them away. Yeah, I PUSHED. Was seriously freaking mad about it. Rain stopped after 15minutes. Set up our booth again. This time, we got the Sec 2s to set up. They took fucking long time to set the booth up. & I screamed off at them. Guess what Odelia replied? "You come clean yourself la." That attitude kid. {This time, I'am not letting her off. So, I'am writing her name down in here to disgrace her.} I totally lose my cool & off I went, blasting at her. "Stop giving me attitude, I tell you, Odelia!" I've never scolded ANY of my cadets like this before. Shes the first one 'cause I think shes a nutcase up there, giving attitude all the time. I would rather she quit RC than to rot the whole unit. After quite awhile, Songwen thought the carnival ended, so we packed up. Once again, the Sec 2s are killing me slowly. They claimed to finished packing up & fall in despite the big tent with the displaying uniforms still over at the parade square. Yeah, scolded them off again. It's like, can't they have some initative?! & then, here comes Adeline telling us that the carnival has not ended. But this time, we aren't gonna set the booth up again. So, we used our voices only. Okay, fast forwarded, carnival ended, had our debrief, slacked at the carpark while waiting for the campfire FA duty.
Campfire was a total bore for us. Then, the cadets, Zhi Qi & Calvin started playing with the Axe oil. Rubbing each other with Axe oil. Hey, how STUPID la!? & everyone's looking at our behaviour. GG's there, parents are there. & here they are, behaving like lunatics. Then, Songwen got rubbed {He din't play along with them. He was sitting beside me all the way.} with the oil & he got real uncomfortable with it. I could see the pain which the oil caused in his eyes. He was even screaming. This time, I blasted off AGAIN. Well, I'am just knocking sense into Zhi Qi & Calvin. One DH, another Ex DH, & they had no basic discipline at all. I've already let them played, but they've gone too overboard. Then, Sab Ma'am saw us & she knew I somehow scolded them off. & she was like siding with them. Ah, whatever. So, I walked off.
Campfire ended. Sec 1s went back to their own classrooms to have their debrief. Locked up RC room & went to class 1N6 to wait for Karthik, Gayatri's bro.
Left school, met Mum & sista at the coffeeshop, & home sweet home.

Saturday
Woke up at 8am. Got dressed & went downstairs to wait for HupSong. We agreed to go jogging yesterday. He stood us up for 30minutes. AH! Made me wait like an idiot down at my block. So, went to the nearby track & ran 3 rounds, strolled 3 rounds. LOL. I seriously need more workout.
Then, breakfast at the market. Haha, thanks HupSong for the 10bucks.
Amaths tution was pushed back to 1pm instead of usual 11am. Did Differentiation again. Yeah, I think I'am getting better at it. (:
Went home & watched telly.
At 6pm, went to TM Popular to get my highlighters, my Biology assesment book, & my notepad.
Met Auntie Eunice, Mummy then started chatting with her.
Dinner time, then went to library to borrow books. I love being in the library, surrounded by books. From 8pm to 11pm, I finished a book with 160 pages. ;D

Sunday
Dragged myself out of bed at 11am. Switched on handphone & saw messages flowing in. But, I din't reply any. Too lazy to do so.
Physics tution started at 12.15noon. Ended at 2.30pm. My brain juices are flowing again, it's not getting jammed up. YAY!
Studied & did my homework all the way until 9pm. Wow!
& here I am, blogging.

Tomorrow, Amaths test. AH! Amaths sucks.
Okay, I need to turn in early tonight to have my full energy for tomorrow.

Byes!
;Loves, Christina
What a long post again.

4E1, Year 2007
Class Name: Cuckoo Berts
Class Motto: To soar like berts.
Form Teacher: Mr Albert Teoh
English Teacher: Mrs Emily Cheng
Physics Teacher: Mr Selvarasoo
Biology Teacher: Mrs Quek
Chemistry Teacher: Miss Cheryl Ong
SS Teacher: Mdm Sharifah
History Teacher: Not sure yet
Amaths Teacher: Mr Pinto
Emaths Teacher: Mr Albert Teoh
[Subject to changes.]

4E1, Year 2006/07 Class Committee
Class Chairman: Ang Ren
Class V.Chairman: Mei Ting
Head of Class Curriculum: Ren Jie
Head of Class Management: Yao Ting
English Rep: Simone
Emaths Rep: Bernice
Amaths Rep: Joshua
Physics Rep: Gary {HAAH!}
Chemistry Rep: Yen Ting
Chinese Rep: Shaun
Biology Rep: Priscilla
CME Rep: Sean Hean
History Rep: Aloysius
SS Rep: SuLing
[Not in running order.]

Oh my. Almost half of our teachers are ALL HODS! GROANS.
& plus, we had interaction with Mr Teoh today in class. The way he talks is MONOTONE. Half of the class were feeling sooo sleepy, & were falling asleep!
Yeah yeah, once we're back in the classroom, teachers start giving us pressure. 'This is the best class, so, I expect the best behaviour from you guys. Afterall, you are all Sec 4s.' Ah, every year the same sentence. Can they like change it? I'am getting more & more irritated by this sentence. Sometimes, I hate being in the best class. Sometimes, I regretted taking triple science as my subject combination. & teachers had been spreading that the girls in our class are arrogant. Oh, am I? >.< Ah yes, one more thing. Survey had shown that, 4E students in our school look down on 4N & 4T students. Oh, I guess, we will never have the time to look down on them. They're simply thinking too much.
Anyway, Asyraf, Aloy & Saddam got punished on the first day of school. LOL.
After school ended at around 1.30pm {From next week onwards, we end school at 5pm 'cause of SSP!!}, went for RC CCA Carnival meeting. Well, my Sec2 darlings' are doing quite a good job. YAY! SongWen, cheer up la. I know being a leader isn't that easy, ok? & Finally, they are having the taste of being an NCO.

Alright. It's 5.10pm already. Gotta watch my favourite variety show. BuhBye!
Might be blogging later on personality tests.

;Loves, Christina

Oh my. Time really flies. 2 months of holidays flew away just like this. & school's reopening just tomorrow! I've not really finished my homework yet. I don't know how. Haiz.

Anyway, I seriously have to quit my blogging addiction. I've becoming more & more addicted to it. I can't help it. See, blogging can be addictive.

Another 5 things you've got to know about me:

1. I love toying with my hair when I go to bed. {Heh.}
2. I only listen to slow songs.
3. I hate eating corns, beans, peas, & spicy.
4. I eat chocolates whenever I'am feeling freaking darn low.
5. I'am addicted to blogging. {I know, this is crap}

Alright. Gotta sleep early tonight. AH, I'am supposed to go for Sec1 Orientation Camp FA duty. It's a day camp. How bored. & now, I'am not needed there. 'Cause they said, there isn't any vigorous activities on first day. So, I'am shifted to the third day, where there's a run at Macritchie Reservoir. & CCA carnival too. Hopefully, it doesn't get screwed up. I have faith in my Sec2 darlings'. (:

Buhbye!

;Loves, Christina

Aw, Groans, I'am superduper bored right now.

20 things you should know about me:

1. I'am super emotional. I could cry even reading a storybook about breakups.
2. I'am VERY afraid of ghosts. I need the radio to accompany me whenever I stay up very late.
3. On the first very impression, I look at the guy's hairstyle & spectacles. {If he doesn't wear specs, too bad.}
4. My first crush happened when I was in Primary 3/4 in my tution homecare. It all started with some unhappiness. At first, I thought that he was someone who's mischevious & loves making fun of others. But, who knows?
5. I believe in Astrology & Tarot cards. {VERY MUCH.}
6. I dislike going around with just myself. {Same goes for public toilets as well.}
7. I never confess to the guy I like.
8. I get jealous easily.
9. I may be a Buddhist, but, I believe in Christanity too.
10. I love photography. It's just that, I don't have a digital camera & my phone couldn't upload the pictures I took.
11. I demand perfect in everything I do. In another words, I'am a perfectionist.
12. I seldom save up for things that I desire.
13. I get hungry every 20 minutes.
14. I hate listening to English songs cause I don't understand the lyrics by listening to it.
15. I express myself better in Chinese.
16. I type fast but in actual fact, that isn't the right way to type.
17. I was super quiet and shy when I was in kindergarden & in primary school.
18. I get scared whenever I got locked up in some room. My imagination tends to run wild. & I got locked out my flat once when I was young.
19. My palm size's S & rough 'cause it's heredity.
20. I fractured my left elbow before, & cried terribly when the cast got removed 'cause I'am afraid that the doctor would chop off my arm.

;Loves, Christina

If there's a chance for me to change an event in year 2006, I would still prefer to leave it intact, untouched. Bcause everything in year 2006 had made me grown much more mature {Er, I hope so}. Bcause, I don't want to change the love for him.
The frequent quarrels with my Dad, & the aftermath of those quarrels were always cryings, made me realise the importance of harmony in the family.
The result slip in my report book made me realise the importance of studying hard & strive towards my goal.
The scoldings & pressure received from the VIs during the process of planning the camp made me realise the importance of anger managing & persistance.
The losing of my batchmate, Eileen, had really made me realise that I need to treasure those around me.
NDP06 & CampUnity06 indeed brighten up my life bcause of the different people that had made an great impact on me & they had left their footprints forever in my heart. (:
Looking back at year 2006, those memories, I couldn't help but to smile like a fool. I'am really glad I'am able to overcome the bad & good times in year 2006.
Yeah, year 2007 will be a tough year but, I'am gonna face it. Bcause in order to score well for Os, I have to endure all the pressure, & I know I have to.

I could still remember the first day of school last year. I was terrified bcause I'am afraid that I would not do well for my subject combinations. Bcause, it's triple science, double maths & HMT. But, now that I've gotten Bs for almost all my subjects, I'am relieved that I din't give up halfway.
This year round, I will step into the classroom with all my might bcause I have faith in myself. I know, I will be able to overcome all obstancles. I need not be afraid. I will still be smiling even if I score a 20points for Os bcause I know, the result of it relies on my actions. As long as I tried my best, there's nothing to regret, nothing to be afraid.

Maybe, I wrote this post bcause I don't want to be a crybaby anymore. & this is where I can find myself back. Bcause, this is where I vent my frustrations, shared my joy & everything with the people out there. This is where I'am brave enough to let others know what's good & bad happening in my world. I love expressing myself even though I know I'am not good at it.

只要笑一笑，没什么事情过不了。我会勇敢的去面对。。 因为，我知道我可以做到的。（：

I want to be a good daughter, a good friend, a good senior, a good student, a good sister, & maybe.. {Heh, it's for me & you to know.}

Ah uh, back to normal. Stop being so emotional, Christina! Haha.
Well, I don't know why I had the sudden urge to write that. It just come to my mind naturally.
Anyway, yeah. Finished up half of my Chinese homework. Leaving only Maths & Chinese newspaper articles. Ah, I hate doing Maths & newspaper articles. It's always the same old assignments for holidays. But, let's look at it at another perspective. It's ALL for our own good. So, I'll do it. ;DD
I wonder what's coming over me. I ain't afraid of Os. Is it because I had a premonition that I will score quite badly or something? Forget it, I don't know either. Haha.

Alright. I have to rush my homework so that I could help out my Sec2 darlings' in their CCA Carnival pre-preparation. They seriously need help. So, in order to be a good senior, I have to HELP them. Lol.

Might be updating later.
;Loves, Christina

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